Good morning! I feel absolutely awful! I’d been fighting off the funk since Dakota started coughing on Thursday – vitamins, rest, lots of water – but I think it’s finally taking me down. She was sick most of the weekend but not in an awful way. She played very well for hours at a time but then she’d start feeling like crap again and whine and fall over and just sob. She wouldn’t drink water from a sippy but I needed her to stay hydrated. She would, however, drink warm milk in a bottle. So there was that bit of reverting but eh, what can you do? She finally got a good night’s sleep last night (the two before were awful!) and she woke feeling well, except for massive drainage. They’re going to be wiping her nose all day.
Aside from her being sick, the major source of my stress was from Ell having his friends over. For the most part, it was fine. It was just very loud and very chaotic. Also, he and one of them were angry at each other on Saturday morning so there was that bit of typical sleepover drama. But for the most part, they all got along fine. We drove to the park at 10 where Ell and Addy had practice and Peyton’s mom picked him up as well. Directly after, Isaac and Ash went to a birthday party and I took the other two home. Elliot was in full-on post sleepover blues mode. I remember that feeling so vividly: I’d come home feeling just fine, almost on a high from all the fun, and when real life set back in, the let-down was too much to bear. I couldn’t find him as I was getting things cleaned up in the kitchen and then I managed to seek him out, sobbing in the rocking chair. He could barely put into words what he was feeling. Finally, he said it felt like his friends were only there for an hour. So he was just really sad. I convinced him to eat a grilled cheese sandwich and he was feeling a lot better. BUT, that’s when I got a text form Ash asking me to bring his swim stuff. Why he didn’t plan that in the first place, I don’t know. I couldn’t very well go there with Elliot and just leave, so I intended to let him attend the party too. It was hot and I was irritated and when I got there, Ash didn’t answer the phone so I had to get the just fallen asleep baby out of the car and carry her all the way inside to see people I had no intention of staying and talking to. Angry words may have spewed from my mouth when I finally saw my husband.
I left Ell and I went home. I put her down for a nap (remember, she was not 100%) and I had a piece of chocolate cake and beer, then fell asleep watching Wrath of Khan. When everyone got home, no one seemed annoyed by me, so that was good. I ran to Costco and Publix with the baby and came home to everyone asleep – a bit late for nap but at least they rested. While I got everything out of the car, Dakota had the blow out of the century. So a bath and a massive cleansing of the carseat were in order. It was AWFUL. But I pressed on, making chicken tacos and mowing the lawn before putting her to bed. I knew I should not have overextended myself, on the verge of illness. Even yesterday, I woke feeling so-so but I made breakfast and Ell and I went to get some stuff for lunch. Honestly, I should have just rested. Elliot was still in a major funk. His two favorites sayings right now are, “Yeah, right.” and “No!!!” to every single thing I say. I’m sick and tired of it. He’s really disrespectful and I cannot figure out why. He’s not usually. I will say that when he does finally listen, he’s been much better about replying with “yes, ma’am.”. This makes me very happy.
SIGH. I was exhausted last night and had a hard time getting up today. My plan is to go teach and then get on out of here. Depending on whether or not this medicine kicks in (it’s knock-off dayquil but it “expired” a few months ago) I might swing by Michael’s for some rainbow loom bands for Elliot and a Fall decoration or two for me. Then I am parking my ass on the couch!
I have some nice mellow tunes for you today.
I don’t know what it is about this song but I just really love it. The lyrics are actually kind of sad. So I present James Taylor, Her Town Too.
In the process of listening to a lot of James Taylor on Spotify, I discovered that I love the lyrics to this song, particularly the “frost on the pumpkins” line.
And here’s one more: Millworker: