I was suddenly aware last Wednesday night that I was super out of sorts. Last semester was a new job and living style but I got accustomed to it very quickly. Then December happened and though I enjoyed living life without having the beatdown of a daily grind at work, it was not real life either. The time from December 6th (my last day having to go to campus) and the new year was all online work and shopping and family stuff. But then January happened and I was like, what even is my life? Last week though, I got pretty much on my feet. Kids went back to school, Ash and I got a lot of brewing stuff cleaned, I raked, and I got my TCC classes going. Students seem good. I want them to succeed and I think I have a good chance at putting my best effort in since I am teaching fewer sections now.

On that note, yes, that means I am making less money. So another success this week is that I applied to a couple online tutoring places, another online teaching job, and for a place that hires contract virtual personal assistants. My friend has been doing that forever and I thought that might be good for me. After all, I was my boss’s assistant for 13 years. So here’s hoping that any of these work out and I find my footing in terms of a stable income. I knew that leaving the office job would mean some shaky months. This isn’t a surprise. But I want to figure this all out because in the end, this kind of work gives me the time I need.

I’m not quite in the routine yet, since classes just began and my other ones don’t start until the end of the month. When I am really busy, I don’t think, I just DO. And somehow that keeps me sane. When it’s slow, I have too much time to be self-reflective and it can be overwhelming.

I keep feeling like I want to go to Pensacola. We usually do sometime in January to see my folks after Christmas but we saw them down south when we visited other family. I cannot even imagine when we’d get over there now; soccer takes up all Saturdays until late February. I want to go and visit the breweries and eat out and I guess I just like the different location and getting away from the house.

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I wrote all that last week and never managed to post! Sad, eh? I was STRUGGLING to get my head wrapped around my face to face classes this term. I feel a little more confident now, having met with them twice. We have our first real lesson today and I am planning now. Anyway, I applied for a full time position at this college this morning so if you have any good vibes to send my way, I’d appreciate it! I know they’re going to open another one so I see it as just more opportunities for me; a better chance they’d hire me on. I want this so much!

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OK so freebie week. I am going to share this cover of the theme for The Witcher. Have you guys watched it? I enjoyed it to a point but it’s nothing amazing. It’ll do though. Some people say it’s good for folks who liked Game of Thrones but its’ different enough that it isn’t a GoT ripoff.