Today is the first day in a week that I didn’t wake up feeling ashamed and like I wanted to hide in my bed. I learned to move past my recent friend drama and I have to forgive myself. Despite what my mind wanted to tell me last week, this is but one small part of my life. I have so many pieces – so many balls I am juggling at any given time – that I need to realize that complexity and be thankful for it. Actually, truth be told, this emotional rift made me stop and reevaluate so many things. I took time to look at small things. I appreciated the fireflies around dusk, the possum family whose shadows I saw scurrying in the tree branches behind my house.
And we went to the beach. Oh how delightful that was. We got to St. George around 11 and some of my friends were already there and set up. In total, there were five families and our children. Though I think we should have left about and hour earlier, I had a wonderful time. These are people I’ve known over ten years and though we don’t see other all the time, when we do, it’s comfortable and fun. Elliot went home with his friend Peyton and the rest of us got in around 8:30, tired, hungry, overexposed to the sun. But I woke the next feeling recharged and actually… happy. In fact, I got up and mowed my lawn and cleaned up the beach chairs and stuff. By 11 I was done with than AND two loads of laundry and went to retrieve my son before going out to lunch.
The day was relaxing. I got some writing done and as I said, I just appreciated all I have. Funny how your life can become staid and so task-driven that simply enjoying life itself falls by the wayside!
So I randomly friended someone on tumblr and he’s like me: loves old-school metal. He recommended this band, Night Demon, and man, they are GOOD. I am so excited to find something new. Plus, when they toured the US earlier this year, they actually came near here! I tweeted them I’d love to see them come through my town and they liked my tweet. Squee!
And for the fun of it, here’s some Ghost. This might be their best song. But they have a lot of other great ones.