1. May Day! May Day!…last time you shouted for help? Or maybe just asked?

I guess I had a minor breakdown around 1 am Saturday; the weight of too many activities just felt overwhelming and I cried a little to my husband. But this is what I do: I go a long while all tough and controlled then I have to let it go a bit.

2. What’s something you may do this month? 

I may regain some semblance of my own time. HA! I don’t know who I am kidding. This weekend, we have the boys’ two last games before two tournaments and Dakota’s dance recital. Granted, I think after that we will regain some time. I don’t know how many more practices they’ll have but dance is over until June 8th.

3.  ‘April showers bring May flowers’...is this true where you live? What’s blooming? What’s your favorite springtime blossom?

I don’t recall April being as rainy as normal this year but we do have some stuff blooming in the back, mainly jasmine and my gardenias. I think I like this white and purple Douglas iris I randomly have in a corner of my yard. It’s very pretty.

4. What’s something you learned at your mother’s knee?

Hmm, so I only recently learned about when to say the right things to my husband. I know that sounds awful and old-fashioned but I tend to combat and play word games but I have been better about letting my husband expound on whatever and just be supportive. My dad was a hot head and she was very good at keeping her cool.

5. Share a thought about motherhood. 

Oh boy, so many thoughts. I’m in a special place right now where they mostly don’t need me as much. Even though my youngest is 8, she is very independent. But because of this, it’s getting harder to tell when they DO need me for something. Isaac was a little hangry the other day and losing his cool and Ash asked if he needed a hug and he wailed that yes, that was all he wanted. LOL. Motherhood is basically one crazy emotion after another.

6. Insert your own random thought here. 

We have been choosing Tuesday each week as our fasting day. But really, I eat a lunch on Monday and probably a keto snack around six (flax seed crackers, pecans, and cheese) but then we fast until we eat Wednesday. Today, we probably won’t eat until 4:30. It’s a good long cleansing period and helps restore my body after weekends when, as of late, we’ve been letting loose a lot: beer, pizza, long eating windows. The funny thing is how difficult Tuesday afternoons are but Wednesdays are great. You’d think that would not be the case, especially for someone like myself who has been eating one meal a day for well over a year. But on Tuesdays, it’s psychological: it’s 12, why are we not eating?? And the late afternoons are the worst: slow and I’m hungry but not starving. It’s odd.

But Wednesdays, the long fast and keto has kicked in, making me super focused and driven. I have already done dishes, swept the hall upstairs, and answered a bunch of emails. I’ll be working hard all morning until I tutor. I may feel tired at some point and probably cold too but if I stay busy, I can push through those side effects. I also use this stuff called LMNT and it’s a combo of salt and magnesium; helps replenish and doesn’t break the fast. For now, I’m drinking my black coffee and getting my brain right. There really is so much value in fasting!