- I was thinking the other night that there are no things I am wanting to buy lately. If you don’t count some new jeans – which I have been meaning to get via taking my old beat up ones into H&M, breaking my personal rule of not buying brand new ones, and finding something similar – there’s nothing I am wanting. Which is really awesome because it means I have transcended; I don’t spend frivolously at all.
- However, next week I do plan to get a pedicure, which is about the most splurge-y thing I do these days.
- I don’t like when students take a class together. I have 3 pairs of people taking my 10 am English course this term and when one skips, so does the other and so on. So on Wednesday, I was missing 10 people. 10! Two emailed me saying they were “sick” but the others were probably feeding off each other and not going. If I had to give advice to college kids I’d say to make your own schedule and don’t base it off a friend or roommate.
- As of last Wednesday, my in-law’s third child had been born. I was chatting with her on text the other day and I realized just how weird it is to think how far away from childbirth I am. My oldest is 17.5, my youngest, 11.5 I am in a completely different season of life than they are and it’s both fascinating and a relief.
- This unseasonably warm weather is not unwelcome but it’s also weird. Like, it’s getting to almost the 80s! I am sure that in a week’s time it’ll be cold again but for now, I am enjoying walks that aren’t unbearable.
- I’ve been watching a lot of youtube videos about pre-code movies. It’s pretty crazy some of the stuff they filmed back then!
- I’m blasting through my grading today, listening to vaporwave, and trying to finish enough to allow myself to get on the indoor cycle. I’m going to do 10 today then my other 5 miler on Saturday or Sunday. I might be picking up my borrowed road bike then too.
- Troubles with my oldest child continue, from his accident last week (granted, it wasn’t really his fault) to this week’s awful attitude and inability to remember, well, anything, I am over it. His car’s headlights automatically turn off, so we have been reminding him as he has been driving my car all week, to remember to turn them off. See, back in September, he was home all weekend while we were gone and he drove my vehicle…and left them on all night. The next day he went out to leave for work and of course it was dead. I scrambled to find him a ride (apparently none of his friends could get him to work) and he ended up asking a neighbor. So it’s not unreasonable to distrust him. I’ve made it sort of a joke; “Hey, don’t forget those lights! Ha ha” but he takes it as disparaging. So last night, he went to the gym and on his way out I joked, “Hey I know you know by now but remember to turn ’em off.” He just rolled his eyes. And two hours later I get this call: “Hey mom, I’m sorry. You were right.” Sigh. And he figured it out himself, which is great. But instead of actually being aware and realizing his faults, he’s right back to being defensive and thinking that us getting on him is mean. Anyone ever parent a boy? What IS this crap? All I want him to know is how to handle things and avoid issues. And he thinks we’re over here just trying to beat him up, which is of course not true!
- It weighs heavily on me because you know, he graduates in a few months and if all our plans work out, he’ll be moving to start a career and I mean, like all parents we just want him to feel at least a little prepared.
- I am so tired of seeing political memes that point out the stupidity of hypocrisy of the posters. Hey, guess what? Fauci wasn’t elected either and look what he did? Ok, rant over. Sorry guys. Had to be said.
- It’s supposed to rain all day, which is appropriate for my mood. I feel stormy, worrying about launching this child, impending need for a better job, overwhelming need for better time management when it comes to working out and eating, and then little things like my daughter rolled her ankle and she’s pretty active so that sucks, then my middle starts soccer soon so it’ll be busy again. Ugh. It’s all so crushing.
- You know what I need? A weekend getaway. We almost went to Gainesville for a whiskey tasting with some friends but opted for the virtual one instead, which is this weekend. A little trip away would have been awfully restorative though.
- All my online classes have reached the week where they have drafts due, hence, I must give a lot of feedback. So today is going to be long and difficult; thank GOD tonight is brew club!
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What you described about your son reminds me of my son. A lot. He is the first born and has always been quite independent. I liked that about him though truthfully it sometimes made me sad that he didn’t seem to need us more. But I was proud, too, at the same time. When he was a teenager, he sometimes seemed quite immature. It’s a cliche but I think it’s true that girls mature earlier than boys. From what I know of you (granted, very little, lol), your kids seem to be raised right. Of course they will make mistakes and be moody and difficult sometimes. But, I think your son is on the right track due to your parenting. Sorry about your daughter’s rolled ankle and the weather. And the students in your class. And about people who think that revealing massive fraud and terrible wasting of taxpayer money is somehow a bad thing….
Thanks for the words; I like to hear my son isn’t the only one. I know he isn’t. but it still feels annoying. The problems persist after this post, sadly. But I think that’s it: I feel like we “raised them right” so for him to go off the rails feels like failure. I know he’ll get there but it’ll take time.
Well I have a theory about kids who are nearly launched. I think they push back more because there is a need to pull away and then this allows the mom who has been dreading the day to suddenly feel like yes, maybe some space would be good lol. Launching is a process and you’ll both get there. Also, Fauci. Definitely needs to be said. Hang in there with your son. He’ll find his way and you’re helping him to do just that.
Vaporwave! Probably more relaxing that the ’80’s Japanese City Pop playlist that I’ve been listening to at night, which seems to have skipped forward a couple of decades. Got to find a playlist for tonight.
Another one: Valerie Jarrett….