- I’m thinking about returning to Medium and writing an article titled, “Can the fabric of America be mended?” I have A LOT of ideas. What I don’t have is time.
- Whenever I complain about not having time I think about this thing I read about Arnold Schwarzenegger once. He talks about how, when he first came to America, he worked construction by day, then went to class, then the gym, and then he studied, then slept. We all have time; we just have to make it.
- I’m feeling very frazzled today, at the same time as getting stuff done. It’s an unsettled sort of overwhelmed I don’t deal well with. I find myself falling into ye olde traps of running from problems. I’ll put off X because it scares me and focus on Y, which is easier to tackle. But of course, X is still there, waiting for me.
- Want to know something good that happened though? Ok, so for the past 6 years we’ve lived in this new house, I have often thought about the fact that I could not find the birth certificates. I keep all “important docs” in a place in our closet. I specifically recall packing them and seeing them when we unpacked, however. Whenever a kid needed documentation for something like getting a license or job, we used passports. Well, this past August, theirs expired and kids can’t renew; they have to get new ones and we have no plans for them to travel internationally so I let that go. As I’m thinking about Isaac getting his permit in April, I’ve been pondering their locations lately. Probably twice a year for the past 6 I have done a cursory search. Well, last week I found a folder in the kitchen that had my original marriage certificate in it. I didn’t put two and two together at the time, but this was the folder I took when we went to get our passports. After taking that document upstairs to where I keep two fireproof black boxes with all the stuff, I decided to look in a small pile of things directly next to them. And wouldn’t you know, they are all there, in the yellow envelopes in which the government sent them back…after we applied for passports!
- I do wish I felt happier about this – it’s huge! But I find myself just not that excited. Something may be wrong with me. It’s either age or this time change; I can’t decide which. But I am generally unhappy, even though nothing is “wrong.” Stupid season changes.
- I of course realize that my moods are on me to change so I have been managing my time effectively, getting stuff done but taking appropriate breaks to either do a bit of praying or mindless reel scrolling. Fundamentally, I don’t really like that but at the same time, if I limit myself to about 5 minutes of watching silly french bulldogs riding skateboards, it’s about the right mental break I need.
- I made a small error in one of my online classes and then missed a call from the liaison woman about it. Then I got into my head about phone anxiety and just emailed her instead. I hope she just emails me. I have always hated talking on the phone/making phone calls and I hate that I let it bother me because again, fundamentally, I think you can overcome any and all issues like that. But man, I just REALLY don’t want to talk to her!
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Yah for finding the important papers! I misplaced my passport earlier this year. I had to have it to get into Canada- I I was afraid that I wouldn´t be able to go on my trip. It was such a relief to find it.
I heard someone say that the excuse of not having the time to do something really means you don´t have the priority to do it. I think that´s true to a large extent. I used to have friends tell me they wished they were more fit but they had no time to exercise. Then they´d discuss their favorite TV shows that they watched regularly. They could have been exercising during that time but watching TV was more of a priority. I know that I have used not having the time as an excuse myself for things that were really just low on my priority list.
That’s a really good way to phrase it; I know I often make a priority list and those kinds of things are pushed further down. Though, fair to say, I’ve been prioritizing biking. It’s good but also, knocks other stuff down the list for sure. I think that’s what my husband has been experiencing lately too, when he feels like he’s not accomplishing much. Training is taking up so much of our time now.
Congrats on finding the birth certs! You can always order new ones, but still. I lost my BS diploma years ago. Of course, I can always get my transcripts if needed, but it bothers me that my actual diploma is floating around “somewhere”.
I feel pressed for time too, so I needed to be reminded that I have more time than I think. Thanks for that!
Yeah I was considering the re-order but the price has gone up since the last time I looked as well – 30 bucks and it takes up to 6 weeks. What a hassle!