- I’m baffled by this phenomenon wherein I sleep soundly all night, yet feel more tired the next day. How is it that on nights I wake often, I make it through all of work not feeling sleepy? This makes no sense at all. My sleep schedule has been messed up anyway: falling asleep in my chair for about an hour, going up to bed, then waking by 5! On a normal work day, I set an alarm for 5:55 but my body seems to want to be up earlier now.
- We have been so busy that I can’t seem to catch up. I need to carve out time to wrap presents and just have a day at home. As noted, EC meeting tonight and then tomorrow, another friend party. Last night at trivia, some folks talked about having a get-together on Christmas Eve and in my head I’m like “NO. We need to catch up and spend time with family!” I’m not going to stress or veto just yet; I’ll wait to see if that was just the drinks talking.
- We won trivia last night, actually. There were four rounds of Christmas Movie themes: Elf, General, Home Alone, and (of course) Christmas Vacation. The guy who does our trivia played Cousin Eddie’s son, Rocky. Anyway, we won the last round: tied with six other teams and I was the designee for the tie-breaker question which was: How much money did the movie gross in its opening weekend? The answer was 11 million; I guess 15 and was closest. We won a board game themed from the movie and a $25 gift card at Ology. Pretty neat!
- Before that, I left work at 1:30 and Elliot and I had sushi together. It was really nice, actually, since most of the time, he’s engaged with his computer games and generally has a bad attitude. But we talked and he was happy; it’s like he was a real person and not a teenage boy! He accompanied me to Target then I took him across town to a friend’s house. Of course he is happy when he’s getting what he wants; LOL.
- Today is going to be long. Working a full day and don’t have much work to do: just one late 5 pager and a redraft. I can do it but I am really ready for the break.
- The plan tomorrow is to do a half day then go home, take my car in for an oil change and a squeaky belt, then have lunch and possibly catch up on shopping. I feel like we’re mostly done but Ash always has a last-minute panic and thinks we don’t have enough.
- Today wouldn’t be so boring if I had online work to do but we are in-between three courses right now. I mean, am I grateful to get the reprieve? Sure. But when I don’t have work work to do, I start to think about all the things I could be doing at home and get really frustrated.
- I don’t appreciate that it’s in the 40s outside and somehow, my office is colder than normal. Would it kill them to assess who is in the building and pump some heat? A lot of floors are empty but we still have work so I mean, use some logic?
- Ugh. I wish I could accurately describe this feeling of anxious to get out of here, fear of tackling all that has to be done, and the paralyzing worry about the holidays as a whole. It is bothering me to a point where I can’t barely stand it.
- I’m watching a video about how our school systems have failed, which I’ve believed for years now. I only wish I had a solution to it, or could help my kids work around it. The problem is I am not going to homeschool, which may be the only solution. Sigh.
- I know that was an odd tangent but I’m trying to watch more educational videos; open my mind to different ideas. Our world is so encapsulated in pure garbage now and I think I’m reaching the end of what I can handle. I don’t want any of this new social anything.
- I just had a brilliant idea: I am going to go back a couple weeks and watch that Publix holiday commercial compilation. Sure, I’ll need to close my door so when I start weeping uncontrollably, I won’t be seen by co-workers but this very well may be the solution to my sadness and anxiety about the holidays.
- That said, if I can recoup some time to myself I WILL manage to do my typical drink egg nog and wrap presents evening. And then, only then, will I really and truly feel ready for Christmas.
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I hate that weird feeling of anxiety when I’m one place and not busy and know I need to be in another place where I have lots to do!!
Schools need to get back to the 3 R’s, especially at the grade school level. Mom (who was a teacher) thought that the schools started going down the toilet with the establishment of the Department of Education. I’m sure she was right.
For a long time, I went through most of December feeling like I was on the verge of an emotional breakdown. Sometimes a good cry was all I needed. Stop at Publix and get yourself a half-gallon of egg nog, then at the liquor store and get a bottle of Jack Daniel’s, mix the two together and drink it while watching Hallmark or wrapping presents…
I’m in a bit of a work lull too with the students being on break. Then all next week, the testing center is closed. So I’m trying to watch “educational” videos too while putzing around, and usually end up watching true crime…
I think there are a lot of problems with our educational system, but like you, don’t have a solution. I’m so glad my kids are finished with K-12.