This post in no way has anything to do with Christmas! or December! or even anything remotely related to the holly jolly time of year, though it was my intention to write a “First of December” post. I feel obligated to write what I am about to because sometimes the cosmic forces tell you things.

So thing one was that when I turned on the TV this morning, Mtv was actually playing music. Well, if you can call it that. I don’t know what kids these days are putting into their earholes but my god, it’s bad. I know this makes me sound old and curmudgeony but like all things, they don’t make it like they used to. So, POINT being: there was music on Music TV!

Thing the second is that on the XM 80s channel this morning, they played two songs in a row that triggered my way back machine and I remembered being about, oh, six or seven and heavily influenced by Mtv. This is back when they actually did play a lot of videos because it was a happier time and bands took music and videos seriously. I had a few favorites at this time: “Uptown Girl” by Billy Joel, “If This is It” by Huey Lewis and the News, and “Just a Gigolo”, a solo effort by Van Halen front man, David Lee Roth.

I’m sure a large part of my interest in these songs had to do with my father, who watched a whole hell of a lot of TV and it was a great way to watch me at that same time. (Presumably when my mother was at work but as far as I can recall, she mostly worked weeknights; maybe a Saturday morning here and there.)

Anyway, so XM played both “If This is It” and “Uptown Girl” back to back this morning. It made me feel like I did when I was a kid and I obsessed about these songs and the singers. It was like these were mine. Perhaps that’s the collector in me; I have always liked collections. To me, liking these songs was like something I held on to. These were “my videos”. And the one thing I notice about at least 2/3 of them is that the artists were what we’d consider the Bad Boy.

Since embedding is disabled on two of the three, you’ll have to deal with links. But go and see and you’ll understand what I mean:

Uptown Girl
Just a Gigolo
If This is It

Guess I’ve always had a thing for guys who were “bad” or from the wrong side o’ the tracks, (as they say). This could be what led me into liking Guns ‘n Roses, Def Leppard and Motley Crue. And the funny part, to me, is that I ended up falling in love with a computer nerd.  I find this pretty amusing. The world has plans for us, no matter what. Ash has been really understanding this whole pregnancy, in which I have been far harder to deal with than the first time. At least, I feel like it. I can’t even begin to, well, thank him for that patience. It’s not easy dealing with someone who’s exceedingly happy then mopey and sorrowful the next second. Heap onto that all the discomfort, which I constantly complain about, and the general exhaustion that renders me useless after 8 PM.

I don’t know if I could deal with me, if I were him. It takes a lot of fortitude. For that, I am forever grateful. I feel like I owe him or something.  I wonder what would be appropriate as a “gift” to give back to him…