- (I began this Sunday and chose to just continue onto Monday, even though we’re in holiday mode)
- I’m the only one up, at 6:30 on a Sunday, and while it’s nice, I don’t feel quite right today. Not entirely sure why but I’m sure my mood will turn around. After all, we still have two more days of this weekend!
- On Friday, Ash and I both ran and then enjoyed our afternoon until all the kids got home. We left around 6:30 for Elliot’s birthday dinner at the hibachi place. It was nice and I’m glad we all got to go out, though I still feel like we didn’t do enough for his 18th. Oh well.
- Saturday I started on some cleaning and laundry and we watched soccer then college football. Our neighbors came over for a couple hours during the FSU game, which was nice.
- I was feeling a little bad after Friday, where I found out a friend of mine, who shares a birthday with my son, was having people over for hers but I wasn’t invited. And I kind of can’t figure out why. We’ve known each other a long time and never had any sort of falling out, but sometimes she (and another in the group) just forget about me. And maybe it’s me; I should text more or whatever.
- It’s partly that they tend to go out without their boring husbands but I actually do a lot with mine so it makes for an awkward situation.
- I’m not looking for more friends or necessarily sad; but I don’t like feeling left out if there wasn’t any bad blood, you know? Plus, I’m really not like other women. I’m a beer drinker, I’m not into pop music, I am not…all that feminine. So yeah, guess I should accept – finally, after all these years – that this is just who I am!
- Maybe in my older empty nest years I will find some women friends I identify with. You never know.
- Today, we have plans to brew, especially since we only have a few weeks before our Germany trip so if we don’t do it now, it’ll be really late when we get around to it.
- Speaking of that trip, the closer it gets the more worried I’m becoming. I hate flying and my parents are staying with the kids, which creates a whole other set of worries. I know once I’m there I’ll enjoy it but still.
- I’ve been holding it together pretty well, emotionally, but I’m starting to feel the stress creeping in. Guess I need to find a way to handle it all and move on! Ok, off to get some things done before everyone is up. Happy Sunday.
- Monday now; was first up again. Just got some work done and I’m heading towards doing dishes and running. It’s cool out again today, I can tell. There’s a certain smell the house has when it’s not as hot out. I can’t explain it anymore than that but it’s there and refreshing. I was holding onto Summer there for a bit but guess we’re trending towards fall.
- This is especially punctuated by football. I am not a homer, as they say. I don’t necessarily support FSU because I live here; I’m well aware they could be god-awful any year. But that absolute BEATING they gave to Bama was good for the soul – mine and this city’s.
- We have our last fantasy draft later today; it’s the league Ash and I care least about but it was historically about the kids. So we keep it afloat anyway. Thursday is the first NFL game!
- OK, time to run and not feel so fat from all the eating and drinking we’ve done this weekend. Hey, it’s been a nice respite from the busyness of work so, no complaints!
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I usually chalk up the “not feeling quite right, but I don’t know why” to menopause. F-ing hormones. It’ll turn around.
You officially have an adult child now! Happy birthday to him. I know what you mean about not being like other women. I generally feel the same, but I have had some fun relationships with other “weirdos”. We’re out here.
It stinks to be left out of a friend outing pure and simple. I lost a good friend once… for no real reason. She started a time consuming job (she had been the one who reached out to me more than vice versa- I realized this after she had much less time!) and that was about it. No fighting or anything. I reached out to her repeatedly and got virtually nothing out of her so that ended… It happens but it’s not a great feeling. Your dinner out for your son’s birthday sounds nice. It is kinda harder when they’re older, I think, to make birthdays special and fun. Enjoy your day off tomorrow! I’m so excited for my husband that he has a day off…
I’m sorry about the friend thing. I think it’s okay not to have a lot of women friends and you seem to live a full life. Happy birthday to your son. It sounds like you marked the day and celebrating young adults is yet another transition we moms have to make as our kids get older. A hibachi dinner is always fun and celebratory. I enjoy reading your blog because you write in a way that feels like you’re working things out as you write and I find myself doing the same as I read. Enjoy your day off!