I can’t believe I’m this far in. I wanted April to go slowly but it is flying by!
S is for Stability
I posted an entry years ago about running into a daycare teacher one of my boys had and as I caught her up on our lives, I realized that things had been status quo and stable, and I was super grateful for it. I thrive on stability. And I can only describe it as the feeling you get when you wake up and know you have a lot going on but generally speaking, things are stable. To me, it’s knowing that you have dependable people in your life like a spouse, that your homelife isn’t wonky, and you have income. For me right now, things are unstable and I don’t like it. But that was on me; I knew teaching would end now and while I have had many job interviews, nothing has come to fruition.
I know that God has a plan for me and in time, things will be stable again. It’s always a learning experience/life lesson when things are thrown out of whack. It teaches you how to be strong, survive, look for the little things that make you feel like life IS stable. Right? Or is that just me? I’ll sink myself into staying busy with things like yardwork and tidying.
The Carnegie book talks a lot about that, when you’re worried. He says, ‘get busy’. Find something to do so you aren’t dwelling on things. He related the story of a woman who was terrified when her son entered WW2. She said she was nearly paralyzed thinking about whether he was injured or dead. So she fired her housekeeper and began cleaning herself. She soon found that she could do all the cleaning mindlessly and still thought about her son. So she got a job at a busy department store and said all the people and orders kept her so busy she had no time to sit around worrying about something she had no control over. She’d get home each day so exhausted, she still didn’t spend time agonizing.
A few days last week, I found myself catching my second wind and working on house tasks into the evening. It’s hard for me to get past the hump, mentally and physically. I’ll sometimes be in this mode where I WANT to do something productive but cannot muster the energy or want. But if you try very hard, it’s definitely possible. This week, I have a long list of small tasks that must be accomplished: call this doctor, call that contractor, take son to buy prom shoes, meal prep, sell things on Ebay. I feel pretty good about them all and I am hoping that through all this, I will find stability soon.
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It sounds as if you have worked out a good plan to keep yourself busy. I did order the book for my husband and he has been reading it, too. Of course, he had to inform me that we have another copy somewhere in our house. I told him this was the UPDATED version for today’s worries haha!
LOL I love it!
Yes, to all of this! One of my loved ones lives very much “in his head.” He frets about everything and overthinks issues as well. I have encouraged him to become more busy and he does tell me that when he works, he’s at his best mentally. I have found the same for myself. The story from the Carnegie book is really powerful! I hope that you find the stability you need financially. Do keep in mind that while financial stability is important, you have your good health, your good marriage, thriving kids, etc. Those are things that really matter (I mean, paying bills and having a little extra is really good, too!).
It requires a lot of mental discipline to get out of our own heads. You seem to have a plan, and staying busy definitely helps. I’m sure something will work out in terms of employment and in the meantime you sound like you’re accomplishing home tasks that are hard to get to when you’re busy with work.