- Tuesday was my worst day in this new schedule. I woke up and once the boys had left, got Dakota all ready and waited with her and her friend until the bus came. I did a two mile run and showered but then I just felt TIRED. Bone tired. I was entirely unmotivated. I did get all my SNHU discussions graded but I was lazy, in general.
- I took myself to Tijuana Flats for the 6.99 Taco Tuesday deal then once I ate, I took a 45 minute nap. At literally noon. I was kind of disappointed in myself but I almost couldn’t even help it. When I woke up, I felt great! Then I felt blah about five minutes later. I forced myself to go to the grocery store then to do things around the house. I had a dentist appointment at 2:30, after all. Once that was over, I think my motivation returned. When I got back, Isaac and I went to get shoes then I made food. Ash got home before 5, which was nice, then I had a zoom thing for one of my online jobs.
- Wednesday, however, I was feeling much better! I wasn’t feeling like I want to run away from/procrastinate things I have to get done. I even walked 2 miles before it got too hot out. That was because I took Dakota to school for her XC practice run and had some time. It wasn’t even that hot; in fact, almost felt coolish. I saw a youtube video where a guy was predicting the coolest, earliest Fall in 15 years. Here’s hoping!
- I don’t know about you all but this month always makes me just a little tired of summer. Not necessarily the heat but because school starts again, my brain automatically moves away from the summer carefree-ness. I love high summer; late evening when the sun is almost set and the sounds of nature are all around. I truly love that. But I get ready to move on; looking for that first cool morning (probably not happening until late September here) and the steadiness of the semester.
- Last year, just before things got busy at my old job, we took a weekend trip to Helen, GA and I am kind of feeling like I want to do that again. We want to go to Columbus for rafting too but now, I think we might just end up at Universal in early November, because they’re sending my husband to another conference. It would be easier to go then.
- I went and got my TSC badge this morning so that’s one thing off my list. I was driving back from the college and realizing how hemmed in by the old job I felt I drove down this tree-lined road and thought, “I needed this freedom.”
- My sister turned 40 yesterday, which is shocking because for so long, I have thought of her as SO much younger than myself. She’s about 5.5 years younger but there was definitely a time when she always seemed like a much younger, irresponsible person. Aside from her penchant for buying shiny useless things, she has made a decent life for herself, her boyfriend, and their dog.
- Despite having done my college campus errand and going to the grocery store, I still feel highly unmotivated today. I might mow the overgrowth area of the yard and I NEED to start on my classes, in terms of uploading, at least, module one.
- It’s a very overcast day, which is nice, considering it has been so dang hot. But it’s making me feel blah. Any pointers on what you all do to propel yourselves forward when you really don’t want to do anything?
- I’m not going to make it to 13 things and I am BUSY.
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I could be TOTALLY wrong, but you might be a little depressed EVEN though things are turning around for you. When I am over-tired and depressed, I have no motivation. I drink more caffeine haha! I’m not prescribing that! Exercise usually helps me a lot, too, and you are doing that. If one of your close friends described how they were feeling (like you have been), what would you say to them? I always tend to be way too hard on myself but extend grace to others so I’ve been trying to think about what I would say to someone else. Does that make sense?
You’re probably right; either depressed or over-stressed but covering it by thinking about how one day, in the near future, all will settle. There’s definitely some unknowns so that bothers me. I usually drink a cup or two of coffee and no more but the other day, I ALMOST got a latte at Starbucks. I’m falling into this pattern of rewarding myself in negative ways so at least I avoided that one! One more coffee and I would have been a jittery mess. Thanks for the advice; I will probably try to be more aware and start doing more proactive things.
I don´t know how you can grade papers and also feel lazy? I would feel like I was killing it, lol. I don´t work- now that is in dangerous L territory though I do feel like I do a lot around the house and for the people in it. And I do want to work part time and am pursing it. But you seem suuuuper on the ball in terms of what you have to do and what you do. I read your post on my phone the first time I read it and I thought when you were talking about what your sister buys, I read the word shiny as shi&*y and I was like, OK, I know that is a commonly used word…But I was glad to realize I was wrong and the actual word you used was shiny!
I’m with Maria….you sound like you accomplish a lot, and of course I think a nap can be restorative so am all in favor of one now and then. You were tired and you listened to that and napped. I understand what you mean by that August feeling. Also, moms carry so much of the emotional load in a family and it’s particularly heavy, scattered, and just plain a lot this time of year. Treat yourself gently just now. You will fall into the new rhythms and routines soon.