- Man, I am out of sorts with vacation coming up. A little frazzled, a little impatient, and a lot unmotivated. I made a list of things to do beforehand and stuff I have to bring and that’s helping me feel a little more like I’ve got a grip on my life.
- I’m not necessarily stressed about the upcoming travel but I find myself emotional. I can’t tell if it’s because I’m so ready for it, worried about flying, or WHAT but it’s so unsettling. OMG, self. Get it together!
- Sunday night, I could NOT fall asleep. I just kept thinking about stuff, stuff I wasn’t going to fix or do anything about at 12:17 AM. Why do I do this to myself? Then I had this awful dream where we were in a crappy old mall and some ancient god had returned to earth to reclaim an artifact someone found. Essentially, everyone thought if we gave it to him he wouldn’t destroy us all but destruction was imminent. I knew, somehow, that this god-like creature, who looked like an Egyptian bird god, was going to kill us all, no matter what we did. People were running around like crazy and it was complete chaos as this giant being made his way towards one end of the mall. In the midst, I saw my daughter and grabbed her from the crowd, held her tight, as we were all obliterated. It was without a doubt, the most problematic dream I have had in a long time. And I woke up Monday feeling downright shaken and depressed.
- I’m feeling a lot more stable today. Ash and I went to bed pretty late because we were talking about stuff and then this morning, since I took my car in for a repair I’d been meaning to do for, oh, probably 8 years now, I had to walk from DOT to here. Which, honestly, I didn’t HAVE to but I chose to. And I was still here way too early but they said no starting before 7:30. So I’m here but I’m not turning my computer on yet. Good to start the day with a walk. Ended it that way too; we did about three miles last night. Time to get healthy.
- I have to really work on this training draft today but I can’t seem to get started. I know it’s just practice but it feels so stressful! That said, I am going to log off and get down to business here!
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Did the god-bird look like Joe Biden? 🙂 Normal feelings before a vacation. Flying IS a drag. I used to stay up all night thinking of everything I had to do. I worked for a woman project manager years ago in California, lived with her a while, and she said, “make a list.” It gave me my sanity back. I’d like to think I would have figured it out on my own. But she saved me some steps. So you are right there. Every time you think of something not on the list, get up and write it on there, then you’ll go back to sleep. Have fun on your trip.
No it didn’t look like Biden but if so, that WOULD have been the worst dream!