Quick! What can I do to NOT be nervous for the next 2 hours? I know that everything will go fine but for some reason, I am overreacting about this whole gender revealing ultrasound. Why? I don’t know! I’m a bit crazy right now so don’t mind the rambling.

After yoga last night I was feeling a lot less freaked out. In fact, during final relaxation, I actually reached a state of inner peace. Then my stomach rumbled in a different place and I realized the belly is pushing the organs around now. Then I felt a little judo chop down on my left side and a grin splayed across my face. I have felt flutters and thumps here and there but this was one of the first harder ones I felt. This made me very happy. I drove home in peace, having achieved this inner calm and went home to hug Ash and apologize for being sort of down before. And then I walked into the living room. The loveseat was pulled away from the wall and arm stuffing was strewn about the floor. The very last thing I said to Ash on my way out, as he slew another creature in EQ, was “please watch the dogs.” Obviously, that didn’t actually take place; the watching that is. Granted, the couch is old and beat up anyway but it’s the principal here. Well, all the stress of U/S day and everything allowed for a great big tirade on my part about doing all the laundry and hauling around a baby and all this other stuff. I really do feel bad for my husband, being on the receiving end of so many harsh, unmeant comments. But come on, a little bit of responsibility here, you know?

Meanwhile, I have passed 20 minutes of time and it’s killing me! Anxious, nervous, scared, and worried all play into this slowing down of the time/space continuum. If it slows down enough, will I cease to exist? Ok, going out of my mind. Be back later.