Random Tuesday – Time to hit the road


Random it up!

  • Why do I keep feeling like it is Friday? Oh, because it’d my last day of work this week. I even plan to get home a bit early so I can pack up. Holiday travel is so stressful but I am really going to try to be calm. Stay calm, keep breathing.
  • We went to the FSU game on Saturday, which, despite the rain, was very cool. Tallahassee has seen some tragedy the past week so the rallying at the game was a nice bit of uplift. I don’t know what is going on here but I can tell you that it isn’t because we have handguns or because our police force isn’t good or whatever people want to think. The problems at hand are larger than that.
  • I’m going to tell you about this thing I have about going to my parents’. See, we don’t have a Bob Evan’s anywhere near us and I really love their breakfast food. So every time we go down there, I beg to eat at Bob’s. I know it is silly; it’s not the best food in the world but it’s sort of one of those things where I want it because I can’t always get it. We ate there last year and, admittedly, it was not the best time. Kids didn’t behave and the service was bad. But maybe this year!
  • Ash is updating the GPS, which is good because they changed the way this one road works and we have gotten off at the wrong exit a few times. It used to be really simple! The road basically dead-ended where we needed to get off. Sometimes I hate change.
  • Here’s something I am looking forward to tomorrow night:4143252571_8e37f0855b_z
  • My parents have a fireplace and yeah, I’m jealous. I want my next home to have one. So many of the homes I have been scouring on Zillow lately do have them. It’s on my secondary checklist, along with wooden shutters on the windows and a jet tub in the master bath. The primary list includes more important things.
  • My dream home just went on the market, actually. It’s in a nearby neighborhood and though it breaks one of my rules (old house been renovated) it is gorgeous. It’s in the heart of town, has lots of space, and is just beautiful. But we’re far enough away from buying that I need to just put that aside; not think about it… yet.
  • I finally got my Picaboo calendars ordered. My mom loves them and I found a good deal on two, so one will go to my grandmother. One more thing I can cross off my list.
  • That’s all I’ve got for now. Many papers still need to be graded before I leave for the day and head out of town! Happy Thanksgiving to all; see you on the flip side.

Friday Five – On not stressing and getting through it

Five thoughts:

      1. I have to admit that I am juuust about done with this class this semester. They deceived me; I thought they were studious and on the ball but so many of them are not and now, they’re all clamoring to get “the answer” to completing their final assignment on time. The answer is, you should have begun weeks ago when I told you about it.
      2. I’m simultaneously looking forward to Thanksgiving and dreading it. Not “it” exactly but the shopping before-hand – because I must bring all ingredients to Orlando for the dishes I am in charge of – and the packing and planning. We got the email about Isaac’s first soccer practice and it is apparently on Tuesday… when we were going to leave. So I need to clarify all that and just get into my zen state of mind.
      3. We’re going to the game tomorrow and I am kind of excited, kind of nervous. Ash wants to leave earlier than I had planned so we can tailgate with some people from his work, whom I do know and like. But that means: more $$ to the babysitter and it messes with the timing of her daily events, like nap and food. BUT, the girl I hired (a grad student in our dept whom I do trust) was a nanny in undergrad so I think she’s got this just fine.
      4. After Sundry posted on Instagram about her SAD lamp, I have been thinking about getting one. I have entertained the idea in the past but I am thinking ahead to January. Sure, we live in Florida but the early sunsets and cold temps tend to depress me right after the holidays. It’s a combination of those things that gets me down so I put one on my Amazon wishlist, the one she had recommended. Has anyone had luck with these before?
      5. On Wednesday I included lyrics from a Bing Crosby Thanksgiving related song. I want to share it with you here because though I am listening to Christmas music right now, I don’t want to gloss over my favorite holiday either.


Five Pictures:


You can see Todd’s bad eye here; it’ll be coming out after Thanksgiving and that brings me a great deal of relief.


When I go to get bagels on Sunday mornings, the sky is always amazing.


Here are my guys on Veteran’s Day


An example of what we’ll be eating next week, at my parents’ house!


We’re so bad at photos! (2011)

Difficult things to process

Last night, someone walked into the main library on campus and opened fire. At the time, they reported about 400 people in that library. It didn’t use to be so packed; when I was going to school, people utilized the library as inoften as they could – just when they needed to get a book and it was widely known that only the most hardcore students studied there. Over the past decade, the school has spent millions renovating and making it the central hub of student activity. There are more, faster computers, study areas, private rooms for group work, and a Starbucks. It’s open 24 hours many days, too.

You hear about these things happening on campuses across America but it hasn’t hit this close to home. As far as I know, the last time something truly scary happened on FSU’s campus was when Ted Bundy killed two sorority girls at Chi Omega. We were obviously dealing with a serial killer then. These school shooters seem to be of a different breed, usually driven to madness by school-related pressure. We don’t know yet who the shooter was but something is bothering me, and I find it actually interesting that I feel this way.

If the gunman was a student, then I am not entirely sure how I feel about the police killing him. From the news reports, they asked him to drop his weapon after he had opened fire on the library and when he turned his weapons on them and began firing, they shot and killed him. If he was a student and I were, say, his mother, I might immediately think that the police should have aimed for the knees or legs and taken him down. But I do not think he should have been killed on site. This then seeps into the argument of what role police play. Are they peace-keepers or low-level military?  What is protocol in this situation? It seems from recent events, they don’t have any sort of tactical plan; they shoot to kill the second they feel the least bit threatened. This calls into question when this shift occurred.  I want to believe that it used to be that they would do what they had to do to bring the offender to justice, not simply end the life and wipe their hands of it.

Today, the entire campus is sort of sad and distraught about this and I myself am torn. I am so bad about determining how big of a deal something is. On the one hand, it is awful that someone thinks that killing innocents is the answer. In the grand scheme of things, no one was killed aside from the shooter and the fact that staff members (myself) have to still report to work indicates that it’s not life-shattering. What level of “bad” is this? How do we feel about it? Everyone keeps posting hashtags #WeAreAllFSU everywhere and though I agree with the solidarity, it sometimes feels forced. Again, I don’t KNOW how to feel about any of this. But typing it out helps.

Campus is quiet. I had to park in a different lot because my usual place was reserved for people for the afternoon press conference. Imagine being school officials at this time. What to say about this? Parents will claim there’s not enough security, but there is. And would we send our children to a school who regularly posted cops at the entrance to the library? No. It’s a scene that denotes am inherently dangerous space, which 99% of the time, it is not. It’s a difficult now to think about this and what it ultimately means. I certainly don’t really know but it has brought about many questions. I am conflicted. And for today, I will push through and keep thinking about the bigger ideas at hand.

Wednesday Hodgepodge – My ray of sunshine on this otherwise crappy day


1. What’s something you take for granted, that when you stop and think about it you feel truly grateful for?

Oh geez, so many things! I guess one of them is how much money we actually make. Now I am not bragging; I’m saying that Ash and I have been at the paycheck to paycheck point and we’ve struggled each time we added another kid but we’ve gotten to the point where we know how to budget everything in our lives now and I am so blessed to be able to do ALL this, live this entire life. And yeah, I forget about that all the time.

2. The color brown-love it or no? What’s your favorite shade of brown? Most loved something in your home or closet in a shade of brown?

I had this brown shirt from Old Navy that I grew to love and it matched a brown pair of Sperrys that were super comfy; it was one of my favorite outfits. But it got a hole and when I went back to ON, they had not one stitch of brown in their collection. In general, it’s kind of a bah color but it suits certain things. The colors of a few rooms in our house are called “warm maple” and are a light brownish and it’s a wonderful cozy color. (Below: the nursery before baby arrived)9288676690_4776ea4a10_z

3. What’s something you’re looking forward to today?

Getting work done and over with! I have to grade a lot of assignments and I am kind of stressed from a crazy morning we had so I just want to be done  with the day.
4. The word ‘feminism’ is not new, but it has been generating all kinds of headlines in recent days and months. What do you think/feel when you hear the word? If you’re a woman, do you want to be described as a feminist? Why or why not?

To me, it tends to have a negative connotation because of some of the people I know who are up in everyone’s faces about the issues. I know it’s a “good” thing in general because I do believe in equality but I am also a realist and know that nothing is equal or fair. I think people all should see everyone as equals but it isn’t going to happen. So I seek to be as fair as I can be. If that means I am a feminist, so be it.

5. What’s something you personally can’t eat without making a mess?

Hmmm, grapefruit? I like to actually eat it with a spoon and a little sugar on top but I always manage to squirt it everywhere.grapefruit

6. When did you last surprise someone with a little gift or when were you last surprised by someone with a little gift? What was it?

A few months ago, one of the TAs brought me flowers, thanking me for all the help I had provided for her and others while she’d been here. I was really moved by it. It was so unexpected, even though she was one of the nicer people I ever dealt with here. It was just such a nice sentiment.

7. Share a favorite quote, saying, song lyric or scripture relating to gratitude.

This is from an old Bing Crosby song:

I’ve got plenty to be thankful for
I haven’t got great big yacht
To sail from shore to shore
Still I’ve got plenty to be thankful for
I’ve got plenty to be thankful for
No private car, no caviar
No carpet on my floor
Still I’ve got plenty to be thankful for
I’ve got eyes to see with, ears to hear with
Arms to hug with, lips to kiss with
Someone to adore
How could anybody ask for more?
My needs are small, I buy ‘em all
At the five and ten cent store
Oh, I’ve got plenty to be thankful for
I’ve got eyes to see with, ears to hear with
Arms to hug with, lips to kiss with
Someone to adore
How could anybody ask for more?
My needs are small, buy ‘em all
Five and ten cent store
Oh, I’ve got plenty to be thankful for

8.  Insert your own random question here.

You know those mornings where nothing goes right? That was today. Ok, in the vein of being grateful and not taking stuff for granted, it could have been worse. For starters, Todd’s eye was looking really good so we agreed to get one more med then not see him until after Thanksgiving. But now it is looking red again. Then, we were running super late and being stressed about Todd, I was just angry this morning. I managed to get a good meal made for the kids but I was an at them and being very, just, out of control. I feel kind of bad about it because they really didn’t do anything wrong – aside from not jumping when I said jump, which is unreasonable, I know.

So, I took a little bit of a break from that rumination and took the dog to the vet AGAIN. He’s ok but we know now where we’re headed. Down the line here, he’ll be a one-eyed dog… for the best.


Random Tuesday – Sickness, Cold, haters


Random it up!

  • Let me tell you: the stomach flu don’t play. Remember how baby threw up last Saturday? Yeah, well Elliot was up at 4:30 AM this Saturday with similar issues, though that was it for him. He felt like crap the rest of the day but he was a one and done. Now I, on the other hand, started feeling bad around 9 PM Sunday but my stomach was dragging its ass. I knew I was going to puke; it was just a matter of when. I spent all Sunday night on the bathroom floor. I had it worse than either kid. I henceforth spent Monday either in bed or on the couch. And when I felt OK enough to drag myself to a semi-upright position, I Lysoled the hell out of all doorknobs, light switches, and other surfaces. No one else needs to get this!
  • Before my bathroom floor quarantine, we had a pretty good weekend. Our garage sale was Saturday and though it was pretty cold, which worried us as far as people actually coming, we made out alright.I wasn’t trying to make a fortune; just trying to get rid of stuff. And we did; most of it was sold and the rest will go to Goodwill. I then picked up my barbecue lunch from Leon High (Their band fundraiser. I was never in band so you might wonder why I always donate. They go house to house in the heat in their uniforms. That right there is torture, people.) We all napped and then around 5:30, went to Sonny’s. Barbecue twice in one day, you ask? I got smoked turkey, mac, and green beans. Entirely different than my lunch of chicken, baked beans, and cole slaw.
  • Sunday was all errands and cleaning but then of course, my illness.
  • Even though I felt like garbage yesterday, it was nice to be able to get in bed when I felt like and watch whatever I wanted on TV (Property Brothers on constant loop, if you must know) and if I wanted it to be quiet, I could make it so. I took a bath and listened to music and it was… fabulous. Sometimes I really appreciate being home alone.
  • Speaking of, we watched Home Alone last night. I cry like a baby when I have been sick and so, I cried at that movie. Once I had kids, that movie had so much more meaning for me.
  • It’s super cold today (35 this morning, and windy) and it is kind of early for these temps. I just went back to last year and around mid-month, it was in the 50s. So, I have read many a student paper on global warming but, uh, maybe not? ;)
  • In a bit, I am taking a stroll across our chilly campus to get tickets for this weekend’s football game. Haters gonna hate but FSU is still undefeated. I know the entire country – everyone outside Tallahassee – wants to see us lose. But you know, there are more important things than football and I wish everyone would just drop it already. Now is the time to worry about bigger issues and be thankful for what we have. Stop picking fights, stop instigating possible problems; just be good to one and all. There, with that said, stepping off my soapbox and doing work. See you tomorrow!

Friday Five – Fighting the ick, time flying, home wishing

Five thoughts:

  1. According to a coworker, I am racist because I don’t want to donate money to the ebola cause. I should have clarified on facebook that I a.) don’t think I want facebook to tell me where to send my money and b.) I am against people donating through social media because it is more about telling people you did it and not doing it because you believe in the cause. But along with being a “terrible person” because I don’t want to be a therapist, I’m racist for not sending money to a teeny tiny area of the world affected by a problem. Why I don’t unfriend more people on facebook is beyond me.
  2. The past few weeks have been the kind where I keep catching little things that I flat out ran out of time to do. Then other things come up and my husband asks why I didn’t do them. As if extra stuff has a place in my life! I asked him when, pray tell, I was supposed to get up to Bed, Bath, and Beyond to replace the inside of our bedroom trash can. That’s not exactly high on my priority list and yet, he was honestly baffled by why I hadn’t done it.
  3. Honestly, some of my work hours are suffering because I have been running errands during the day. It’s a little ridiculous just how much there is to do that cannot be done in the 24 hours we’re given each day.
  4. Add onto this the fact that I am warding off some kind of sickness. I don’t feel bad but I am a little achey (yes, I had a flu shot a month ago) and just sort of run down. Yesterday I took a long hot bath that did eventually get rid of that weird tingly feeling you get before the chills kick in. There was way too much going on in my house for me to just sit around so powering through was actually good for me. I felt pretty good. I slept on the couch on and off until 11 and each time I woke, I noticed that I felt pretty good. And this morning I do too, except my back hurts. Hmmm.
  5. I’d like November to slow down a bit. It’s going quickly right? I started some Christmas shopping early and now I feel a little behind. Especially because one of the Sirius Xm channels has begun playing Xmas songs already. They used to wait until right before Thanksgiving but I guess it’s being pushed to the first week of November! That’s insane! And I can’t deny that I listen to it on my drive every morning. ;)



Five Photos:

I didn’t take many this week so I will just pick some I have liked on Pinterest.


Since we’re house hunting (sort of), this is the kind of porch I want:



I also want an entry:d594a1cc35f21aab2d879e95c4fa412f

And a huge yard (preferably larger than this but like this):hr3245028-30

I love looking at seasonal type images:6f06cc71f7806293643a025ed047c96c


And I just might do this in my house come December:a70a123f4bfb056b98dfc5d8481b8b39

Dreams and homes and sleeplessness and the future

Sunday night, we watched Vanilla Sky for the first time since it came out in 2001. I don’t remember it being  so insanely confusing before, though maybe I just didn’t catch any of those intricacies so it just wasn’t confusing. Anyway, it really made Ash think so we were in bed that night, talking, and it came up that I lie awake many nights just thinking about things. Usually things that stress me out, but I always find a way to get back to sleep. One of the tricks I have is thinking about my dream home. Truthfully, not even a dream home – just a new home that hits even 5/10 things I’d love to have. These include: a laundry room, larger living areas, larger driveway, to be situated on a street with little traffic, and a grassy back yard. When Ash found this out, he really broke down. He was all, “If this really makes you happy, we’ll get you a house. I didn’t realize it meant so much to you.”

Two things about this statement: for one, I feel like it doesn’t mean THAT much because I know we have it good with our super low mortgage for the starter home. I want it but that doesn’t mean I get it, you know? The other thing about this is that we HAVE been thinking about moving for years but it has always come down to some of the disagreements he and I have: he won’t settle for a smaller yard, I won’t settle for a house that is out a very trafficky road, etc. But now we think we might be able to meet in the middle.

So we started talking about what we can actually afford, which is much more than we thought but for years, we’ve been allowing our low housing cost as a reason to do other things. It was a smart move we made early on, before kids. We’ve been able to get other things and do other things like vacation. With Isaac soon to be in kindergarten, we can draft up a reasonable plan for what we can afford. I’ve been scouring zillow and it’s always the same homes I end up looking at. They sit there, taunting me with their brick facades and cute porches and perfectly fenced in yards. Sure, some of them hit all but one thing and it’s a deal breaker. I found one I loved but it didn’t have a garage. Sigh. But it doesn’t matter now because we aren’t moving NOW. But it does give me something to check each day.

The truth of the matter is that we have to wait until we know it is feasible. We also want to rent out our current home so we need to find a management company and do that whole thing. I am nervous and excited and hopeful. Our current home has been a good one but we need larger living areas. With the kids getting older, it’s absolutely necessary. So in the meantime, as we near the time when we’ll enact a plan, I will think about my dream home in the wee small hours of the morning.

Wednesday hodgepodge – Glad it’s back this week!

1. We celebrate Veteran’s Day in the US of A on November 11th. When did you last interact with a member of the armed forces (either currently serving or retired)? Have you ever written a letter to a soldier, bought a meal or coffee for a soldier, said an unprompted thank you to a soldier you encountered out and about somewhere? If you’re not in the US, comment on a similar holiday in your own country.

Does yesterday’s parade count? We sat next to a group of them. But for the most part, it’s a community I do not regularly interact with. However, about two years ago, a guy who must have served in the Gulf War (judging by his age) was always standing on this one cut-through road I took. One day, I actually handed him some money because I caught that light and he was just so thankful. I feel badly that so many of them end up that way.

2. You can have fifty pounds of anything at all (except money)…what would you choose?

Like our host, I can’t think of anything for myself that I’d want 50 pounds of. So I will go with coats for when it gets cold here. I’d donate them to the battered women/childrens’ center.

3. When did you last receive an invitation in the ‘real’ mail? What was it for and did you attend? When it comes to RSVP-ing, are you an ‘early responder’ or a ‘last minute, barely-under-the-wire’ kind of guest?

I can’t remember the last time I got something of that sort in the actual mail! I guess the last physical invite was for one of Isaac’s friend’s parties so it was sent home from school. And I am typically an early responder.

In general I’m an early responder. I’ve heard some interesting stories about wedding RSVP’s, but we’ve already had some returned and so far, so good. 

4. What’s something you really don’t like to waste?

Food. LOL. It’s hold-over from my childhood when we were all told we’d better finish our food because there are starving children in China. I don’t hesitate to throw some away if I am full. But for my kids, I make them at at least X number of bites sometimes because leftovers bug me.

5. Cheers, Friends, MASH, Seinfeld…of the ones listed, your favorite long-running sitcom?

Friends! Though I did used to like Cheers. Never cared for Seinfeld.

6. What decision are you glad you made?

I agree with our host: having kids was definitely one of the best. I didn’t really want them but once I committed, I am so glad I did.

7. In this month of ‘Thanksgiving’ what is one thing that’s different today than it was a year ago that you’re grateful for?

Well for one thing, Baby isn’t much of a baby anymore. I love tiny babies but this stage is way more fun. She can say some words and show affection and she’s so smart.


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Last week

8. Insert your own random thought here.

Life is BUSY, people. I am way overwhelmed this week. between getting ready for our garage sale, and grading to do, and the fact that we spent yesterday afternoon in the doctor’s office with baby (she’s fine; think she was having a night terror), I am just drowning in it. I threatened to run away by myself for a week and of course I would never do that but I honest-to-God have half a mind to find a good deal on a one night stay in one of the local ritzy hotels. I mean, how magical would it be to just be alone for a little while? I would miss my kids at some point but maybe one night by myself would do the trick.

Random Tuesday – Troll, America, Soda, Onward!


Random it up!

  • So there actually is a troll commenting on my brief mention of ebola. It’s great! I remember reading Dooce a loooong time ago and thinking how funny it was that people spent actual time and energy to say negative things on her site. I finally gained one!
  • It’s Veteran’s Day and I, of course, shout out to anyone who gave their time, effort, and some, their lives for our country. I’m not cut out for the military so thank you to the ones who are!
  • We’re going to the parade later and I love this one because two things: bikers and military vehicles. I get a little teary-eyed when they all start their engines and roar past with American flags flying. I finally understand why my grandmother cried at parades. I found it so strange when I was a kid. While people bustled about her kitchen in the early Thanksgiving morning hours, she sat glued to the Macy’s Day Parade.
  • Can you believe Thanksgiving is so close? Now that flag football is over, my next few weekends are defined as (in order): Garage Sale, FSU game, Thanksgiving. They’ll go quickly too, I know it.
  • Todd update: his eye looks a lot better. He has another appointment on Thursday so we’ll see if it is actually better. That would be a major relief!
  • I am stuck on level 361 of Candy Crush and it seems nigh impossible to beat. So I have been playing their soda version and liking it a whole lot more. Just what I need: another time waster!
  • Since it’s a day off/holiday, I have to run; still have normal work type things to do except I am at home and being bugged by three tiny humans. See you tomorrow!

Friday Five – Fear itself, Joke or no?, Homecoming

Five Thoughts:

  1. Isaac is going through a particularly annoying phase (you know four to five years old) but the most exasperating trend is the fact that he’s waking up multiple times a night, barging into our room, and saying he’s scared. What of, I don’t know. It’s pretty darn bright in his room with this LED nightlight and he has never really been afraid of much before. On top of that, he’s refusing to do as he is told and is being a little snot to his brother. I let some of it slide, because I remember Elliot going through that phase, but the sleeping thing hurts because he used to be such an excellent sleeper. In fact, all three of my kids, for the most part, sleep all night long. I count myself lucky in this department because I know so many parents who report otherwise from their children.
  2. Last Friday, I got a comment on my post that might have been typed in jest but I cannot be sure. The anonymous commenter, “Concerned Mom”, was freaking out about my family being in Texas… where there’s Ebola. Again, if it had not been anonymous, I would think it was someone I know who reads my blog. Was it a joke or is someone actually scared about this? Hmmm…
  3. When I took Todd to the vet last week, we passed a little old Boston in the waiting room. The dog actually looked familiar to me but I wasn’t sure. But when this woman started eyeing me, we finally recognized each other. Long ago and far away, when I used to participate in a forum called woof.com, I met up with a local family who had five Boston terriers. We had multiple meet ups with other Boston owners so there were a lot of little doggies all running around together. This was before kids and as I was pregnant with my first. It was really nice to talk to her and find out how her dogs were doing and all that. Funny how you can live in a semi-small place like this and see the same people all the time but then others, hardly ever.
  4. I forgot today is Homecoming so I won’t be able to run out around lunch to give Todd his meds. They block off the area near my parking lot so I will have to wait until the parade is over. This makes me quite nervous but he should be alright.
  5. I have some students coming in to get extra help on their papers today and let me tell you, I have no interest in talking to them again. We went over this stuff ad nauseum and I gave them the tools to move forward and yet, here they are. So many college kids think that their professors simply have the answers and are unwilling to hand them over for a good grade. It isn’t like that! It’s on them to actually use their brains!


Five Photos:


I wrote this the other night and I see now how discombobulated I was. Either way, I thought it was weird. Next two photos are for reference:


Rikki Rockett


Nikki Sixx



Here’s Isaac playing with the model trains last week


How true is this?!