Oh do I have some random for you; my life has been a lot of random crap lately.
- I had a dream Friday night that has really stuck with me. There was more to Tallahassee; I took a highway to this place that had more hotels and shops and restaurants. There was a lot of traffic too but I remember the excitement in knowing there was more to explore. I have seen pretty much everything this town has. Granted, I haven’t eaten at every restaurant but the feeling of knowing I could GO somewhere else new was exhilarating.
- My phone had a near catastrophe yesterday when I left it on the bumper of Ash’s car. It had been raining for a couple days so when we got home and it was dry and sunny, everyone went outside. As we were getting ready to go in, I put it on his car and took some things inside, figuring I’d go back out in a minute. Well, he left for Magic and I totally forgot. I remembered only as I heard the garage door closing so I ran out after him, flailing my arms as he turned the corner away from our home. My children heard some choice words as I thought about all I’d have to do if it was dead in the road somewhere. I grabbed my keys and wallet and told the kids I’d be right back, then went to my car to look in the neighborhood roads, in case it fell off there. But then, what did I see in the middle of the street right out from our driveway? Yup, it fell right off when he backed out. It was unharmed and I thanked the Powers That Be for saving my ass.
- I was exceedingly tired yesterday and I know exactly why: I had a burger and fries for lunch and cheesecake in the afternoon. I tried the new Smashburger in town (it was SO GOOD) and my friend had some leftover cheesecake from our get-together on Thursday. I noticed the past few weeks that when I eat healthy, I am not as tired. So today I have grilled turkey and some light cheese for a wrap and then a container full of sauteed zucchini. That should do it!
- This is the last week of classes! I am both excited and sad about this. I will get paid through the beginning of May for teaching but then not again until July. Summer kind of sucks that way.
- SO ready for a beach day, you guys! I am hoping it will at least be dry and cool this weekend (it is today) so we can go out and do some hiking at Torreya. I’ll probably twist and ankle but hey, still fun.
This week’s prompt is about the last time you faced a fear. It’s actually kind of tough for me…
Ok, I know what I’ll discuss. And that is… discussions. I get nervous and scared when I have to bring up certain topics with my husband. These are usually things like money or ideas I have that I think he’ll shoot down. Thirty six years old and I still fear rejection.
Well, something I have been meaning to talk to him about is the Big V – getting a vasectomy. In the past, he’s been adamant about NOT having one EVER. He had “friends” at work who tell him such insanity like “you could die” or “it’s the worst pain in the entire world.” This makes me SO mad because we have good, close friends who have had it – like five men he knows well enough to talk to about sensitive subjects – who have said that it was fine and they felt better the next day. Super easy!
So, at my birthday gathering, my friend had a few too many drinks and when I took out my bc, she started getting on my husband about having not done the Big V yet and blah blah and he was really pretty mad about it. I told him that I’d meant to discuss it with him but not like that. I never wanted her to say anything.
So this past Friday, when we were drinking beer at lunch, I confided in him that I honestly worry about getting pregnant every day. I am on the pill but I still stress about it because my cycle hasn’t been normal since I quit breastfeeding back in June. He never realized I was actually stressed; he just figured I was complaining as usual. LOL. As we talked and I told him how I’d make special man cave for him during his recovery, I could tell he was actually reconsidering it. The thing that might have actually sold him? I told him that I’d never make him wash dishes ever again. Haha ha! This cracks me up. If this is what cements it, this will make for a great story for many years to come.
I was ever so relieved that I was able to face the fear of bringing this up with him. It wasn’t as bad as I anticipated but that is part of the fear: I think it’s going to be the hardest thing. I am glad that I was able to conquer this and hope I can keep doing it in the future.
- Let’s start today off with a video, shall we?
- I heart them all; cannot wait for Age of Ultron! (Thor – ::swoon::; Hawkeye – ::swoon::)
- Man, that was a lot of punctuation in that last part there huh? It was necessary; they’re adorbs.
- I am overloaded today: work, meetings, have to go across town for things for Isaac’s birthday tomorrow. And on top of that, my sciatic nerve is acting up. Argh.
- Oh, and those awful allergies are still here, making me miserable.
- I meet with the principal of Elliot’s school today to talk about 3rd grade. It’s going to be hard not to just rant about everything his teacher did wrong this year but as I explain the kind of teacher he and I need for next year, well, that stuff is going to come out. I mean, this morning, he told me not to bother packing a snack because she took away snack time… because they get too loud. Um… what? The kids need a snack. It’s not my fault you can’t control your classroom. She’s a seasoned teacher too!
- One last really random video clip: my kids love The Last Dragon and go around saying “Sho’ nuff!” all the time. LOL.
Time for Tuesday Chat!
The prompt today is:
“Favourite things. What are we loving these days?”
Alright alright, let’s see. Hmm, ok well, I am loving that Game of Thrones is back! I’m super excited to see Arya go to Braavos and the House of Black and White. I haven’t read the books so no spoilers, y’all. I just want her to become the most badass assassin to ever live.
I am also totally shipping these two!
It’s too bad that exchange hasn’t *actually* happened. We all know Jaime feels it but you know, Cersei and all. Ugh. I’m super excited to see where this season leads us. Oh, and I want the Mountain to die a horrible death. He’s already dead, you say? I highly doubt it.
Let’s see… what else? I’m really digging these Perdue grilled chicken Shortcuts. They have made it easy to pack healthy lunches… and I have lost three pounds.
My favorite beer lately has been Sierra Nevada’s Beer Camp Hoppy Lager, which is their spring seasonal. It has the bite that I’m looking for in any beer.
I ought to go ahead and just buy the variety pack and get it over with. I’m sure I’ll like them and it’s not like I won’t drink them. ::wink wink::
(I am SO not a drunk, I promise.)
- I just dropped my car off to have the fan and tire taken care of. Another chunk of money out of my ass but eh, you know how this stuff goes, right? At least I will have a car with no issues again.
- Elliot had his first baseball game last night. The teams tied but he had a run so I was pretty proud. I think his team was a little nervous and had to ease into things but overall, pretty proud of them. Go Marlins!
- Did you happen to catch the Justin Beiber roast on Comedy Central? I thought it was pretty damn funny but funniest of all was Martha Stewart. She slaughtered him and she made it hilarious. I found it highly amusing that she recalled her time in prison as well with some shank jokes. Oh Martha, Homemaker Especial and raunchy comedian. I heart her.
- When Elliot and I finished our 5k on Saturday and were checking out the vendors, food, etc, we stopped by the medal table because we heard everyone would receive a medal. The volunteer told us they had run out of 5k medals. I was a little shocked that that many people could have finished before us; we were at about a 10 minute mile pace and most of the people who sign up for those, well, they are slightly slower. That’s just truth. So the old lady volunteer said they were giving kids old medals from the year before. This really pissed me off because it basically said that the kids don’t matter. I think Elliot beating me is a huge deal. I think any little kid who goes out there and busts his ass deserves a medal. So when she wasn’t looking, I snagged a 10k one!
- Later, on the FB page for our track club, another mom complained about something similar and I said I found it odd that they’d run out. The conversation got way crazy because some people got mad at the organizers – who actually didn’t even order 5k medals, as it turns out – and some were offering to donate their medals. But some were really mad that others would complain. My guess is that they didn’t have kids. I didn’t partake in that fight once I saw that the medals simply never existed. But I am glad I got one for him.
- I think my above story is a good segue into the Tuesday Coffee Chat prompt!
Are you a Rebel, or a by-the-book kinda person?
Ok ok, I know a lot of people want to say they are rebels but to be completely honest, I am in a lot of ways. But in a lot of ways, I am VERY by the book. I believe some things have to be a certain way. You should act a certain way towards people and in traffic and at work. But I rebel in other ways. On Fridays, I wear fun shirts to work. Even if it’s not really “acceptable” I wear AC/DC, Star Wars, Game of Thrones, etc. Because that’s fun.
I tend to break rules if I think I can get away with it and no one will get hurt. I don’t want to fall into the boring lame mom category ever so I guess you could say I rebel by bucking tradition.
Hey everyone, time for some Random; you ready?
- I was down two pounds this morning; yay! I may have jump started my body into losing weight so now, if I keep it up, maybe this will work. I’m really hopeful about it. And not really hating this healthy food. Not yet anyway.
- I know it’s sad to say but I had a dream the other night that I didn’t have all this flab on my belly. I saw something on facebook that was by a mom who wore a bikini proudly because her stomach fat was her battle scar from three kids. Though I feel this way too, I also don’t think people want to be subjected to that. People are, for the most part, really shallow and I figure, it’s a common courtesy. Besides, I think I’d feel a little more confident and proud if I lost the weight because I ate better and worked out. It isn’t JUST about “being skinny”. Hell, I am pretty sure I will never be “skinny”.
- Stacy, our host, talked about the guy with the accidental wedding invite in her post today so along the lines of weddings… I am wondering if I’m going to get invited to an old’s friend’s upcoming wedding. She’s talking about it on FB a lot and I am only about 4 hours from where she lives. We were out of touch for a long time but speak and comment fairly regularly through fb. It will be interesting! I think I’d go if she asked.
- I need to make a list today; things keep popping up then immediately disappearing and I know I am going to drop the ball somewhere. Do you write on paper to remind yourself of things or do you use some other form?
Now onto the Tuesday chat prompt below:
17 Again! If you could be any age again, for one week, what age would you be?
I think I would pick… 26. Ash and I had been married about a year, I was the thinnest I had been in years, and we had no children yet. Our days consisted of working, then coming home and eating dinner while watching basketball or football. We went out often – just to stores or friends’ houses – and we were big into rock climbing. I LOVED those days of ours. We had so much time and energy and our days were for US. I don’t regret kids for one moment and they fill my life so much more than before; I was sometimes bored before. But it would be interesting to go back and live like that and actually appreciate it. I didn’t then; I only do now because of how much busier we are!
We were so young!
- I just got Elliot and myself registered for the upcoming Springtime 5K. I know it’s a fairly hilly course but we’re actively training and should be fine. It’s kind of sad to be stressing about a mere 3 miles when I’ve done half marathons but those were pre-third baby! I’ve been out of it for a while.
- Ell and I did a good three miler on trails the other day and I’m feeling it. The trail we run is fairly technical – roots and downhill, curvy too. My sides are hating me! The planks and push ups I’ve been doing in my office contribute to that pain as well. But I am tired of being flabby and I have to fit into a bathing suit in October!
- I’ve been looking at these vintage style bathing suits on Pinterest and I think I might get one for our trip. What do you think? Too old-lady-ish?
- My Loseit! app says that if I stick to my goal of roughly 1550 calories a day, I will meet my goal (15 pounds lost) by October but we will see. That doesn’t really take into account working out but I will definitely be running from here on out. I have this plan to bring my 3 pound weights back to my office (they lived here forever!) and do arm exercises like crazy. My poor family genes: we’re destined for flabby upper arms but generally thin bodies. Ugh.
- Did you hear about the petition to get rid of the ‘feeling fat” emotion option on Facebook? That’s just plain ridiculous, in my opinion. if I want to express that I feel fat, how does that hurt someone? That’s my opinion and it isn’t aimed at anyone. This world has gotten way out of control with words. Since when do words have so much power? Absolutely insane.
Ok, let’s move onto the Tuesday chat prompt:
Would You Rather? Pose a question in your post, such as: “Would you rather sleep in a 5 Star Hotel, or, camp out under the stars?” It can be any question. Provide your answer in your post, and invite readers to answer in the comments.
My question for you is: Would you rather live in the middle states, near beautiful forests and mountain ranges or would you rather live near the ocean,; close to the beach or within driving distance?
For me, it’s near the ocean. I heard a random song on the radio about someone never having seen an ocean and it made me sad; it was an instant and uncontrollable feeling – to think someone had never set their eyes on that vast and awesome sight. I am so much happier when I am on the beach; the way the sun touches your skin is different than when you’re spending time outdoors at your house. The sand, though some may argue is annoying and messy, feels right on my feet. The sound of the waves lapping the shore alone is a kind of therapy you couldn’t pay for. I may not be in “bathing suit shape” and I’m not some pretty person who can walk confidently down the beach but I still love it. I hate gray days and I need sun and that’s the perfect place to soak it up. Below: last summer when about seven families met up for the day:
That’s not to say I wouldn’t love to hike in the woods but it feels more isolated there and that scares me. I’m a happier person near the ocean and some day, I hope to own a house near it.
How about you? Where would you rather live?
- The Master by Kresley Cole is out today and, having read the first seven chapters that she spoiled earlier, I cannot stop reading now.
- But I have student conferences from nine to ten and about sixty papers to grade, as well as two letters of recommendation to get through. Ugh! Why can’t I just read all day? It’s dark and rainy and the perfect condition for couch lounging, blankets, tea, and this here book.
- Since this is RANDOM Tuesday, I want to hearken back to Friday, where the younger kids had their V-Day parties. Isaac’s valentines never made it home. He said he ‘”lost them” but I’m guessing he ate all the candy and threw the paper away. Meanwhile, the majority of kids in Dakota’s class are only children so their gifts were straight off Pinterest: printed little tags with pun-ny statements. I taped rubber bracelets to hologram pet valentines that Isaac picked out. Welcome to three kids everyone!
- A bunch of people I know and one of my good friends all went and saw stupid Fifty Shades on Sunday. I saw it on Facebook. I am not mad I didn’t get an invite; I have probably been so vocal over my hatred of it they figured I wasn’t going. But what it reminded me is how repressed some of them are. They’ll giggle and chatter on about BDSM and what little they know of it and probably wish their husbands paid them that much attention. Ok, that was mean. But still… UGH.
- I bit my lip the other day at lunch and now it is all irritated. I used to get mouth sores from stress all the time but the multivitamin has quelled that. But if I bite the inside of my mouth, I will get some kind of sore. It’s super irritating!
- There’s this cool thing our local “museum” (i.e. natural preserve type zoo) does where you register to go at night and see the animals then. It sounds awesome but it’s this Saturday and the menfolk will be camping. Since I will be alone (save Baby, asleep) I’d like to do something for me. Like, something selfish and guilt-pleasure-ish. Secretly hoping Magic Mike is on TV and I can watch it on mute. LOL. I don’t care if it’s bad; they’re so pretty.
- Well, let’s move onto the Tuesday Chat prompt
Dance like no one is watching. Who are you when no one is watching?
Funny that this should be the prompt, as I kind of already mentioned. I’m a geek when I’m alone. I want to watch something on TV that I love, like Batman or Bones or Hobbit and nerd out over it. I’m a bookworm and a romantic and a cup of hot coffee under the blankets type. But I’m also the crank up Luke Bryan and get my house clean type. I’m introspective; I’ll write in my journal and try to analyze what is going on in my life and how I feel about it. When I find myself alone, I like to stop and really think about my life. With three kids and a very busy schedule, it’s really nice sometimes to slow down and be quiet… and think.
- Well, today has started off MUCH better than yesterday, that’s for sure! I think the sun may even shine today. Shocker!
- Elliot has to do a project for school and he can choose a minority, woman, native american, etc. We’ve chosen Dragging Canoe, a Cherokee chieftain known for his extraordinary bravery. Ash is 1/8 Cherokee, which makes Ell 1/16. Pretty sure this is our obvious choice then. He can then learn his ancestry at the same time! I looked for books in the campus libraries and found all of… one. I’ll go get it later and let him pick and choose his info. These projects are always fun but also painstaking.
- We had to have a Come to Jesus talk with him recently about supposed behavior issues and that C in English and I tell you, he’s doing better now. We can’t always get a great teacher and he has to learn that. I told him how my 5th grade teacher was so mean and she didn’t make learning fun at all. So to get past that, I worked on me. I put myself in direct competition with the smartest kid in the class, Michael Cruz. Granted, I was also an all-A student but he finished tests before me so the challenge was on. I had to beat him to the finish AND still get all As. It is what kept me going that year.
- I have some reading and class prep to do this morning but I am feeling distracted. My brain is thinking about Indian war chiefs, abandoned malls, and old restaurants we no longer can visit. Remember Steak and Ale? I used to love going there for special occasions; it was kind of dark and fancy-looking. Then again, when I was a kid, I thought Red Lobster was fancy.
- We’re considering going to Carrabba’s for Valentine’s day. I actually don’t ever want to eat Italian, let alone eat it at a restaurant but I will, because Ash likes it. But I can’t figure out WHY I no longer like that kind of food. It could be because it makes me feel too full or maybe because most dishes are too rich. Maybe a nice chicken marsala wouldn’t be too bad.
- I had to make a call to the vet and I realize that I never say who I am, but I introduce myself as “Todd’s mom”, because they all know Todd. How crazy.
- It’s almost 9 AM and I haven’t finished my coffee; this is entirely unlike me. Maybe I am learning to temper myself, slow down, enjoy.
And the Tuesday chat prompt:
I think; therefore I have a headache. Suffer from over-thinking? Guilty of the thinking much? Or, just.. .meh.
Yes! I do over-think and I it causes me to second-guess my instincts and my confidence and this is not a good thing at all. I over-think how I am going to get everything done or what some random thing could possibly mean. I sometimes wish I were not so observant of everything because it drives me nuts!
With that, I leave you. I have to go teach and then I’m going out to lunch. Have a good Tuesday!
Time to do that random thang
- Man, what a Superbowl! I said this yesterday: I don’t normally favor a side but I did want the Pats to win this time. But really, all I ever want is a good game. If the SB is a blow-out, I feel cheated. The commercials were pretty good too, though that Allstate ad about the kid dying is like, really? What a buzzkill.
- I thought Katy Perry’s halftime show was awesome, to be honest. It was entertaining and silly and the sharks rocked! I don’t understand why people are hating on it so much. I think the halftime show is normally a steaming pile; this was ten times better.
- It just occurred to me this morning that since we got our new bed, I have had only one night where I woke up in the middle of said night. I sleep from the time I get into bed until the alarm goes off. That’s not to say I’m not still tired; but at least I am staying asleep. Win!
- My mom called last night and the deal is sealed: she and my dad will move to Pensacola so she can start teaching at a private school in August. This is kind of huge because she’s been out of teaching for about a year and my dad has not been able to find work for much longer. (No one wants to hire guys over 60!) This is an even bigger deal because my sister has lived close to my parents, well, forever. If you don’t count when she lived here for a year and Brooklyn for eight months. I kind of wonder if it’s the kick in the pants she needs to make herself totally independent. This move is good for us because: a.) one hour closer than before, b.) A straighter drive and no tolls, and c.) the beach! I am pumped about it.
- I’m feeling super out of shape and though I keep meaning to make a point to work out, I just don’t. I got on the elliptical last Thursday but it feels like forever ago. Maybe audio-books are the thing that will get me out the door. I feel like that might be the solution.
- Did you all hear about that new laundromat in Portland named Spin? It’s not just a place to wash your clothes but a bar and cafe AND they have pinball machines. Howcome no one has thought of this before? Not that I do my laundry anywhere other than home but in large cities, this totally makes sense. I am all about the multitasking.
- Does anyone take probiotics? If so, please tell me what brand you use and if you like it. I’m buying the basic Sundown ones but think I may need more. More active cultures!
- Did you guys hear about the kid in Texas who got suspended for bringing a ring to class and, as he was pretending it was the One Ring (as in, Lord of the…), he told a kid it could make him disappear? I mean, since when do we live in a world where words are so powerful? The admins claim they won’t tolerate threats of any kind and I guess this also means of the imaginary, magical kind. What bullshit. It’s stuff like this that makes me stabby. Don’t we want kids to use their imagination??
- Speaking of things that make me stabby – and this goes along with the Tuesday chat theme: anti-vaxxers … Let me tell you how selfish and ridiculous those folks are. Yes, I know there is gray space, for people whose kids are ill and cannot receive vaccines, but if your kid is healthy enough to receive one then it is your worldly responsibility to get them that vaccine. How dare you put an entire population at risk because you’re “scared” or you “didn’t do your research” or “you abstain for religious reasons.” I interpret that as “I use religion to keep from using logic.” If we have a full-scale measles outbreak, I am gunning for you. Be forewarned.
- That said, I am putting down my pen, so to speak, and moving on. I hope you all have a wonderful Tuesday!
- Is it… almost February? Already? I guess good riddance, January. I mean, my grandma died, people I know are having some issues, and I am beat down by all the stuff we have to do. Maybe February is going to be a whole lot better.
- I just realized I have baby snot on the front of this sweater. Just a testament to the fact that I have small kids, it’s winter, and our mornings are harried.
- We made a fire in the pit last night and made s’mores. It was nice; not too cold but a little windy. When the kids got tired of it, we sent them inside to take a bath and just Ash and I sat there. I love firelight and we could see a lot of stars.
- Tonight is soccer and truthfully, I am over this sport. Just a few more games though. The boys are enjoying it so I’ll stick it out but I am kind of ready to move on to baseball.
- Elliot will be going to a major league game during his Spring break, actually. He’s excited and even more so, my dad is excited to take him.
- UGH in twenty minutes, I have four student conferences, possibly six. There are two people who have not shown for their times on other days so I am guessing they think they are today. If not, well then…
- One of my 2015 goals was to keep up with my friends better. So far, we have tentative plans to make a standing dinner night with my friend and her family. We’re thinking Sundays at Momo’s, which is awesome; pizza and beer! Almost everyone I know is married and/or has kids so it is really difficult to make time. I’m going to try.
- We watched Maze Runner the other day and though I know of the books but had not read them, I was pleasantly surprised. I… I actually like it more than the Hunger Games movies, which bored me to tears, even though I adored those books. At the suggestion of a friend, I began reading Wool last night; also dystopian and so far, pretty interesting!
- It’s getting to be about that time of the year when I yearn to walk in the woods. I think wee’re due for a good hike.
Going to address this prompt this week; why not?
Would you feel ill at ease going to a movie alone?
Or to eat at a restaurant? A concert?
I have gone to a movie by myself exactly twice: once to see Almost Famous and the other time, to see Thor, because when Ash and I went together, I wasn’t feeling well and spent a good bit of that movie in the bathroom. I kind of like the idea of a movie by myself because no one will talk at me but the image it projects is that you have no friends. Though I don’t really care, it still strikes a chord.
I do not mind eating alone and I think people do it far more often now. Sometimes it is nice.
Now a concert? Nah. That’s a group thing. :)