I confess… My stomach feels smallest in the mornings so I get dressed, look down at myself  and feel pretty good. Then I look in the mirror and feel HUGE.

I confess… I was not happy with my weight gain at the doc’s yesterday. Six pounds in five weeks. He said that every pregnant woman “pops” at some point so the larger gain is different for everyone. HOWEVER, I was still feeling too big. He told me if I wanted to control it, to just cut down on carbs. Um, my life revolves around carbs.

I confess… After yoga on Wednesday, I totally picked up a Vertigo burger; consequences be damned. (It was totally worth it.)

I confess… I will definitely try harder to cut down on carbs (and that night bowl of vanilla ice cream.)  And I think I am going to start swimming once a week. Probably at 7, because more lanes open at the pool and I’m guessing not a lot of people will be there.

I confess… This week has been sort of long and sort of annoying, but I cannot pinpoint why. We had a very nice Thursday evening: Isaac’s end of the year program and then two hours at the public pool with his classmates, pizza, and cake. (Also things I didn’t need.)

I confess... I bought a pair of shoes on ebay that look very similar to Sperry’s… and I am happy with this. I was afraid I wouldn’t like how they look on my feet compared to the other boaties I have. They have a more pointed style. Well, these also feel a little pointy BUT having only paid 15 bucks, I can live with it. Had I paid more for Sperrys and still not been totally pleased, I would have been mad. Now, however, I am searching for the perfect no-show sock.

And that’s what I’ve got today. Hope you all have a good weekend!

I confess… I was mysteriously absent from blogging yesterday because I just had way too much to do. Considering the semester is over, I am surprisingly busy.

I confess… I spent a good portion of yesterday seeking out newer bands that follow in the footsteps of Glam metal. I was actually fairly successful! They’re out there.

I confess… I RSVP’d for a birthday party that I REALLY don’t want to go to. A.) It was short notice: a Wednesday invite for a Friday evening affair and b.) it’s for the kid who’s always biting Isaac. However, it is at the bouncehouse place that they love (Ell will go too because this kid’s older sister was in VPK with him) and it’ll wear them out. But man, how I really wish it wasn’t at THAT place.

I confess… I’m a bit irked by the guys working on my building this week in the absence of students. I came back from lunch one day and a guy was laying across the mat that was in front of the 2nd floor double doors. I stood there for a second before he realized I was there, asked “what?”, and then when I said I’d like to get into my building, told me he was just taking his break. Laying down in front of a door? Come on, dude. Weird-o alert!

I confess… I have really spent way too much money on clothes lately. I got Isaac a new Boden outfit, two cute rompers for Baby Girl, two shirts for myself (iron Man and Jimmy Buffet) and I am still bidding on some boat shoes on ebay. I really must stop but I can’t. I have the money now and I need something other than all this work!

I confess… The overwhelming feeling of needing a vacation has passed, thankfully. But now I keep questioning whether I have gone too far the other way. Like, I need a vacation but I don’t even see it. I’ve always been someone who wants to get all work done before playing but now I feel like I have backed myself into a corner where all I do is work and forego play intentionally, like some kind of martyr.

I confess… I miss running. Looking forward to getting back to it after this baby.

That’s it for today; have a good weekend!

For days after the beach, I somehow keep getting tiny gritty grains of sand in my teeth. I don’t know where they come from. I’m peeling on my upper arms and the brief swatches of skin I missed with the sun stick on my face. My legs look nice and tan though; healthy. But the molting skin looks shabby and withery; I know it’s a renewal of sorts but I’m not presentable.

I confess… I said I was greedy about getting a tan. Well, I got my tan but at the expense of almost an entire week of pain.

Despite my disheveled appearance.  I am at work. I’m playing Thunderstruck a little too loud; if you don’t like AC/DC get out of my office. You’re not worthy.

I confess… I love 80s hair metal and the like; it’s a weakness I have. I also love Glam and wonder if there may be something wrong with me that  I really love guys dressed as women.

My eyes itch from allergies and I’m hungry, even though I have had plenty of food this morning. Ahh, pregnancy. 26 weeks as of Wednesday. Can I really be that far in? It’s an odd sort of time; big but not HUGE. Comfortable for the most part but turning over in bed is starting to be a hassle. This baby girl moves all the time and sometimes it’s not so pleasant. I.E. leave my bladder alone. The strange paranoias I had early on in this pregnancy seem to be gone; I no longer feel trapped in my body, this office, this town. I don’t feel AS bad when people around me are having a drink and I cannot partake. It still annoys me but it’s one freedom I give up for a short period of time. I’m going to drink all the beer when this is over, I swear it.

I confess… when I realized I only had 3 months to go, my first thought was, “Which beer should I drink?”

I do, however, seem to have more students downright staring at me as I pass by in the halls. I don’t recall this last time. I even heard one student whisper to another “I think she’s pregnant.” I *almost* turned around and said, “No shit, Sherlock!” But how immature would that have been? I would have thoroughly enjoyed it though.

I confess… I feel bigger than I ever have at this point and worry I have done something wrong, though this baby has been measuring 4-5 days behind the entire pregnancy. I worry it’s the fact that I eat candy here and there, way more than I usually do.

This rain is sucking; dropping off a kid on a rainy morning could not be more annoying. But if that’s the harshest thing I’m worried about right now, I’m doing ok. Normally, my major stressor is money. I actually haven’t had (knock on wood) money issues in quite some time. I’ve figured out how to budget really well and still save.

I confess… I bought myself an Iron Man arc reactor shirt yesterday, along with an overpriced cute onesie on Amazon and then a shirt and pair of shorts for Isaac from Boden, which is also expensive. I do know when I can spend and when to be strict. It comes from all the years wherein I made just enough money to pay bills and eat but do nothing else.

We’re seeing Iron Man 3 today and I am very excited. I read a few reviews that have me pumped for it. The second movie was not very good; it had its moments and is watchable but in terms of how mind-blowing the first one was (I mean, that exiting the cave scene is one of my top five favorites OF ALL TIME) it was just lackluster. I’m hoping this one is just awesome.

I confess… I love comic book movies, seriously. I may even watch Avengers tonight, just because I can.

I confess… this post has been brought to you by: just enough sleep, a grande latte, and the fact that the bits that aren’t confessions were written over the past two days. I just couldn’t get a post out because I was mired in grading and end of semester BS. But that’s pretty much over!

Have a good weekend!

I confess… I am in a training session this morning so I’ll be back next week!

I think I’ll change my format this week, just because I can and I’m in a funk this week.

SO… I CONFESS…

This week was hard. I felt exhausted and weary – muscle weak. Not entirely sure it was pregnancy related or just partially. Maybe it was mental. Maybe I need a vacation.

I may have eaten out a lot this week. Not necessarily bad foods but I somehow feel bad.

Yesterday I ate nothing but leafy greens and good stuff. Do you know how it made me feel? It made me want the juiciest meatiest cheeseburger ever. I am not meant to be a vegetarian, obviously.

This morning, I may or may not be listening to the, uh, Flashdance soundtrack. LOL.

I did so much this week I now feel unmotivated at home, which is bad because we have an entire room to hardcore clean out. Ash got in there last night and out of all this computer things, actually threw away 10 outdated video cards. We save a lot of shit, y’all.

I really feel like shopping, though there’s really nothing we need. This is counterproductive to all the cleaning out we’re doing, you know. But it’s a compulsion; I want to buy!

I’m following all this Boston stuff but woke up not knowing they’d kill one of the suspects. Disturbing that it’s someone from the outlying Russian countries; I have seen way too many action movies for this not to strike some kind of chord.

We’re probably seeing G.I. Joe today. I also wanted to see The Place Beyond the Pines.  It stars two of my least favorite actors but I am trying to warm up to them. I mean, Bradley Copper was really good in Silver Linings Playbook. You know why? He was nothing like himself.

I’ve moved onto Neil Diamond now.

When I search for “toddler boy shoes 13″ on ebay, I expect to NOT get little pink shoes with bows and Hello Kitty. Apparently their filter doesn’t catch those with the inclusion of the word “boy”.

I’m going to go now and do work – real work! – then I’m outta here and don’t plan on thinking about my job(s) for en entire two days. I can’t wait…

I confess… I somehow just closed my thumb in my desk drawer. Ouch. Stupid Friday.

I confess… I am wearing shorts and a big baggy shirt today but you know what? It’s Friday and I’m pregnant. So there.

I confess… I was a bit disappointed to find out, through various sources, that two of my students – best students at that – are slacking off and it’s due to lame reasons  One of them is spending a lot of time with his girlfriend but telling his advisors he has headaches and the other one is having 48 hour Call of Duty binges. I get it, guys. I was an undergrad once too. And I had a boyfriend. And we played games all night. But by the time I go to those things  I had actually improved as a student and I was managing it all juust fine.

I confess… I opted out of my wifely/motherly duties last night and joined some friends for sushi. And it was good. And I had a great time. Sometimes the last minute plans are the best.

I confess… It was nice getting a bonus ultrasound yesterday. Since my gender reveal u/s was “incomplete” (no good looks at her face) I got to complete it yesterday. We caught her yawning and then sticking her tongue out. LOL. It was quite amusing. She weighs one entire pound now! And I have only gained 11, which is shocking to me because I’ve been lazy!

I confess… I took Benadryl the last two nights before bed for allergies. I normally don’t; I take Allegra. But it was all we had and I’ll tell ya, that will knock you out. Which I both like and dislike. I get up 2-3 times a night to pee these days but when I was on that, i slept 5-6 hours straight. Weird.

I confess… I’m about to play a ton of Candy Crush in between grading papers. Fun, right? I’m also going to work right through lunch and heave-ho outta here by 3:45. Peace out! Have a good weekend!

I confess… It was a little weird going to work today when no one else is. My in-laws are here so Ash is staying home with the kids so they can all hang out. Meanwhile, I’m plugging away at the daily grind. But thankfully, it IS Friday.

I confess… I was in the mood for a Pat Benatar Pandora station this morning.

I confess… Last night, when Ash was making Isaac’s birthday video and as we were trying to find the right song, we stumbled upon a youtube compilation of the top hits of 1995-2000. THAT was a trip down memory lane. We both knew all the songs and as we listened to each tune, we sang and reminisced. Good times.

I confess… Conversely, the top 40 hits of the last few years was pathetic in comparison. I sound old but music ain’t what it used to be.

I confess… I’d LOVE to go home and clean. I got most everything done but as the hostess, I never feel like I have done enough, even if my guests don’t care and/or notice.

I confess… I have spent an obscene amount of time playing Candy Crush this week… and still gotten my work done. So I guess I’m doing pretty good!

I confess… my “I attended the Hill Valley High Enchantment Under the Sea Dance” is clearly not subtle enough; I keep getting random compliments. Wait ’til they see this one!

I confess… I don’t think I realized how much I actually missed my husband until he came home last night. You know, I’m a big girl and can handle it but yeah, I hope he doesn’t take anymore business trips soon. The next conference he has, we’ll be there with him anyway. That’s already planned.

I confess… I have to buckle down and get things done today; I have three major tasks to accomplish before I go home and shut my brain down for the weekend.

I confess… I have to dye eggs with the kids tomorrow and though I do have fond memories of this when I was a child, being in charge of this project brings way too much stress. That reminds me – I have to go grab a cheap campus newspaper to cover my table for this impending vinegar-laden drudge-fest.

I confess… I am over the top thrilled that Ash took the day off and is staying home with Isaac  whose school is closed  And that he’s at Lowe’s right now, buying a new toilet part and shelving. He’s not exactly Mr. Fix-it but when he gets motivated, things get done.

I confess… I have to cut this post short and really work. Sigh. I don’t wanna work… I wanna go home and lay on my deck and drink sweet tea. ::whine::

I confess… another long week for me and I had some seriously irritated moments. I may not have been the nicest to one of my students who complained that his paper was due this week. They’ve been working on it for five weeks! I was also a little heavy handed on my horn for people trying to make a left at the intersection of College and Monroe. I can clearly see that No Left sign, can’t you?

I confess… I woke up in a crappy mood this morning and got mad at Ash. I wish I hadn’t; this is supposed to be my big birthday extravaganza day and I am already on the path to ruining it. I guess there’s still time: lunch, the movie, and dinner.

I confess… I love my new haircut but it’s definitely shorter than I expected. Whenever the hairdresser washes then combs it out, it’s longer than it will be when dry (obviously, since it’s curly) but I took a whopping 13 inches off and when it dries, it’s too short to put up. I just wanted the option. Oh well. At least I donated my gorgeous hair to Locks for Love.

I confess… wearing my hair down is sometimes annoying to me but I am determined to get over it. I kind of hate the feeling of it touching my face but like most women in the world, I can do this. LOL. I am SO not girly. Maybe having a daughter will change that! I mean, the “girliest” thing I do is getting pedicures.

I confess… I created a Pandora station based on the 5th Dimension, because the XM Love station keeps playing Last Night (I couldn’t get to sleep at all) and man, this station is awesome! I mean, all my favorites are on here. Thanks, Pandora!

I confess… it sucks that it’s supposed to rain all weekend. I was hoping Sunday would be sunny s o the boys could play outside. Solo parenting is easier with more options at my disposal. I may have to get creative with indoor crafts. Le sigh.

I confess… I wasn’t kidding when I said I’d buy myself a cupcake on my official b-day next Weds and cry into it by myself in the kitchen. I’l be sure to take super sad photos. LOL. (Really, birthdays don’t mean all that much to me. I am over-reacting!)

I confess… I am waiting on my coffee to kick in this morning. And I need it to; I have a lot to get done before I leave this office for the day.

I confess… We’re heading into a period of time when Ash is going to be very busy and I’ll be picking up the parenting slack. Typically, this doesn’t bother me but being pregnant makes me resent it a wee bit.

I confess… I AM getting some special birthday things soon (salon, spa, nice dinner) so I’ll just shut my mouth, keep pushing onward.

I confess… I cannot wait for Sunday when our high is 80. Aww yeah. I’ll be sipping sweet tea on the deck during nap time and the kids will be playing in the yard ALL afternoon. Thank you, Spring!

I confess… I ate a lot of dark chocolate this week. Mindless snacking is really bad.

I confess… I’m having the urge to spend a lot of money, which is bad because I have got to save where I can for summer and maternity leave. But a couple cute shirts for the boys wouldn’t hurt right? or maybe a cute new baby outfit?

I confess… I am anxiously awaiting the return of the egg bagel to Bruegger’s. And how pathetic is that?

I confess… my quiet Spring Break week has gone by all too quickly and I have to tie up loose ends so I’m out. Have a great weekend!