Friday Confessions – No sleep, No breaks, No patience

 

I confess… I sat on a blank entry both Wednesday and Thursday but I could not formulate anything coherent.

I confess… I have been having sleeping issues this week. This entirely unlike me! I fall asleep at the drop of a hat! Last night and the night before, I slept on the couch for maybe 45 minutes (typical for me) then when I got in bed, I couldn’t fall asleep. I was awake for hours before I finally got rest. Just as I would start to drift off, my mind somehow got all excited and internally shout, “I’m almost asleep!” then it would wake up! UGH. I hope this weekend will be better for sleep.

I confess… I spent part of Wednesday looking for geocaches in the area. So many of them are park ‘n grabs. There’s one in a big oak tree in the parking lot of our grocery store. There’s one by a stone sign on Mahan drive. They’re everywhere! And I am kind of hooked on this idea. I wish I had time to search for these things but I will have to carve it out of our busy schedule.

I confess… I really need today’s half day. Because of the lack of sleep and just general stresses, I have been pretty grumpy and hard to live with this week.  I’ve been impatient with the kids and my husband, alike. Though he’s half the reason I didn’t sleep Wednesday night. He kept flailing his arm across my pillow above my hand. I am finally on board with a king sized bed.

I confess… I have this feeling like I pissed people off and I am dreading dealing with them in the aftermath. So far, no one seems to be holding a grudge but I feel guilty.

I confess… I’m worried that I am becoming kind of an old curmudgeon. I’ve really been saying a lot of “get off my lawn” type things lately.

I confess… I do not feel like doing the 21 Day Fix workout today but I will and I will move on with my life. With that, I’m out! Have a good weekend.

Friday Confessions – at the end of a long week

 

I confess… This week has felt very long. With all the baby stuff and extra things at work, etc, it’s just been a lot of craziness. I didn’t work out much this week because of it. I did day one of the 21 Day Fix but I hurt my leg doing surrenders, which are just ridic. I leave you a vid below just so you can see.

I confess… Ash did day two yesterday but since I mowed the lawn – with the bum leg – I opted out. We’ll probably start fresh on Monday from the beginning anyway. My mom and dad get into town tonight so who knows how busy the weekend will be.

I confess… I really let rush week get me unreasonably angry this week. I said rude things to sorority girls, I bitched about it on facebook, and in general, I was just very curmudgeonly about it. I just hate how they swarm this area of campus and get in my way. I just can’t stand it.

I confess… I really need the 1/2 day today. I mean, I have been all-out stressed and I need a break.  I need a beach day, honestly. It’s supposed to be straight up 100 degrees today and tomorrow. That’s not even the “feels like” temp. Just the normal. Some of the hottest weather we’ve had this summer.

I confess… how is it possible that our copy machine breaks the day before we really need it? It is partially my fault – I was changing the toner and the little latch that holds it in would not click into place and it won’t read that a new toner is in there. I just hope the guy can solve the problem without additional parts because omg, what horrible timing!

I confess… I just cannot stop listening Her Town Too by James Taylor. It’s just such a good song; such a catchy little beat and a feeling of sadness but always, hopefulness.

I confess... I may have done a dance when the copy machine guy fixed it. YAAAAAAY!

I confess… I’m both looking forward to and dreading this upcoming start to the semester (and my two online sections) BUT, I know in the end, it’s all going to be just fine.download

Friday Confessions – My girl plays with trucks

I confess… I am blogging from home today. The daycare is having a teacher planning day and that is also where Elliot was this week, before his school starts on Monday. So all children are home. Ash is home too but he’s taking the boys to see Ninja Turtles in the morning. Depending on BG’s nap schedule, I may join them for lunch. I know I should try to keep her new middle of the day nap but if she starts to lose it in the morning, I don’t know. I may just let the daycare deal with that next week.

I confess… Dakota is in the living room playing with a fire truck and some army men. It’s not like she knows the difference. When she gets old enough to have an opinion, she can pick toys she prefers. Though, who knows? She might want to be a fire…person. Oh… now she is playing with Superman. I approve.

I confess… I have been super tired lately, packing it in between the 9 and 10 PM hour. I realized last night that I think what is causing this is my knowledge that very soon, we’re all going to be very busy. I feel like my body may be subconsciously storing up. Monday Elliot begins school, Isaac starts VPK and Dakota goes into the one year old room. But she has a doc appointment in the morning so it will just be busy for me.

I confess… I am a little worried for Elliot. My friend texted me this morning who his teacher is; the school posted the rosters last night on the front doors in case people couldn’t make it to orientation later today. I texted Ash who it is and he said Elliot proclaimed her to be “the meanest” one. LOL. I doubt she is but now I am a bit stressed. We’ll see later today when we meet her.

I confess… I am grading papers and I am way too lazy to put up the meme pic and link. I hope you all have a great weekend. I just have way too much to do right now.

 

Friday Confessions – Whiny edition

 

I confess… we’ve had quite a few monetary set-backs and now I am stressed. I hate August for this reason: it always seems like there is way more to pay. I admit that I sometimes look at people and wonder if they are in financial peril at all. I’m guessing they probably are. We’re not – I KNOW – but I get easily overwhelmed by added, unexpected things. Everyone else always seems so calm.

I confess… I am totally listening to “Don’t worry, be happy.” Sometimes I need that kind of reminder.

I confess… I didn’t eat well again this week. I did bring my lunch a lot though (I’d better get used to that! Have to save.) and I tried to eat more fruit. What I need to eat are more vegetables. For some reason, that’s hard for me. I love them but don’t factor them into my life.

I confess… After yesterday’s burger, I am done with them for a bit. I realize that though I love a good cheeseburger, I don’t eat them but maybe once every 3-4 weeks.

I confess… my boss’s office door rattles when the A/C comes on and it has been driving me crazy. I just folded up a sheet of printer paper and jammed it into the gap. Ahh… quiet.

I confess… I am having a hard time breaking myself out of this funk. I guess what I need to tell myself is that every single time I get stressed like this about things, it always turns out just fine. Things have a way of working out, don’t they?

I confess… I thought it was all sort of hush hush that one of our big-time professor’s new wife is coming in as a grad student. But apparently not. I feel like they should be a little quieter about nepotism but eh, why bother, right? ;)

I confess… I am looking forward to my workout when I get home because I need the distraction. I hope you all have a good weekend.  I am going to go try to cheer myself up.

Friday Confessions – Mostly Food Crimes

 

I confess… I was just a bad eater this week. There was food given to me, leftover donuts, and a potluck. Ooof. Yesterday I was pretty darn full so I only had yogurt for dinner. That was enough. Goal: do better today.

I confess… Once again, no one told me it was my day to stay at the front desk. I’m getting a little tired of being expected to do things but not told. People, communication is key.

I confess… my neighbor from across the street, an eccentric older woman, is going on vacation and she asked me to keep an eye on her house and get the mail. But each of the times she’s come over to tell me something, we always end up agreeing that vacation is good and we all need one. And then I start to think about how I could use one and, sigh.

I confess… this time of year always makes me a little sad. Grad students who I’ve worked with for years are graduating and moving to far off places. Some are going to California, New York, Bangladesh. It’s a nice time to reflect on that aspect of my job: I love getting to know so many different kinds of people and I especially cherish when I get into conversations with some of them in my office. I learn so many cool things!

I confess… I had this crazy dream that I’m pretty sure is a result of feeling like I have too much to do but keep getting interrupted/sidetracked. I was at work in my dream and there was some kind of emergency where a drug that made people speak incoherently had been diffused in the A/C so people had to evac classrooms and were all standing out in the halls. A bunch of them gathered outside my office as I tried desperately to finish grading papers but I let them take shelter in here anyway. Except as they started coming in, my office looked more like a small hotel room and people were staking out space for themselves in every possible corner. And yet,I kept working. UGH.

I confess… I sometimes forget that Facebook is not necessarily a place to express your opinion. I do understand that by putting myself out there I am opening it up for comment but come on: cut me a break. Also, stop writing checks people.

I confess… I am in the kind of mood where I’d like to just hide – from work, from people, from responsibility. Not good when I have a lot to do.

 

Friday Confessions

 

I confess… I sent fun links to both my husband and my mother with husband/wife and mother/daughter tattoo ideas. Both of them emphatically rejected me. I just thought it might be fun. I give Ash time; I told him that even five years ago I never would have thought he’d be eating chicken on a regular basis. He admitted I was right and maybe some day. I hold out hope; I think it would be a really nice sentiment. As for my mother, I thought it would be cool if she and my sister and I all went in together. Oh well.

I confess… I’m a bit behind on one of my projects and it is stressing me out. The one thing motivating me to get it done is thinking about it BEING done and then in two weeks, summer school will end. I will have a couple weeks to chill before Fall when things will get INSANE.

I confess… I think I’m single-handedly keeping the new campus Dunkin Donuts in business. Ok, I didn’t spend THAT much there but a big old iced latte in the afternoon has become my saving grace. Imagine: it’s almost 3 PM and you’re feeling kind of burned out, a little sleepy. You walk about half a block in 90 degree + temps and there it is: coffee. It’s a wonderful treat.

I confess… I am overwhelmed by the end of our summer. Everything seems to be hurtling to a close in the next month, especially when I realized today that public schools go back on the 18th, not the 25th as I assumed. OMG, how can I not keep track of these things?

I confess… I was a little miffed when I was informed that I’d been nominated to watch the front office today when everyone went home. I don’t mind doing it but it seemed that everyone knew it was my task but of course no one actually told ME. The person doing the job KINDA needs to know, you know?

I confess… it’s noon and I am just now finishing this post. See? Super busy.

Friday Confessions – Don’t skip the coffee

 

I confess… I will never again make the mistake of skipping coffee in the morning. Yesterday, I woke up terribly thirsty so I had some water and on my way into work, stopped at Tropical Smoothie. It was refreshing but not what I really needed. By 10:30 I felt like a zombie: my head ached and I couldn’t even see straight. I reloaded my Dunkin’ card and walked over to get an iced latte. But I clearly didn’t hit the final submit on the reload because the money didn’t go in. I just figured something went wrong, as they slid my card and it still only had a dime on it. The manager came out and gave me a free drink and helped me set up the app. I then reloaded my card for real and bought a donut, thanking them profusely.

I confess… I had a less than pleasant call at 3:45: daycare. The Florida rule is that more than one excessively watery (i.e. gross) diaper is grounds for being sent home. SO, Dakota had to go. I guarantee it’s only teething but since some other kid left earlier in the week with something viral, they were extra cautious. But I was PISSED. Couldn’t she do this on a Wednesday so the 24 hours would be over before Friday? Couldn’t she do this on a non-pay day Friday so one of us wouldn’t have to stay home, thereby ruining our date day? NOPE. Such is life. I was pretty damn mad about it yesterday but today, I know that I have no choice and I accept it.

I confess… I skipped T25 yesterday to rest my foot. Everything about my right foot hurts and those movements just exacerbate it. Feeling pretty good today so I might be able to get through the two workouts. Both will be mostly upper focus so it’ll be low impact on my foot anyway.

I confess… I realized yesterday that I have been very stressed all week. I think that is why I went to bed so early Wednesday night with an awful headache. And why last night I didn’t much feel like eating. I made dinner for everyone then went to Target because we were out of things that apparently people needed ASAP. Sigh. It was nice though because a hardcore storm had blown through and the sun shone sprightly on one side of my car while on the other, the leftover clouds of the storm lingered.20140626_191927

 

I confess… I needed AC/DC to get going today. Big Gun, Thunderstruck, For Those About to Rock…

I confess… I always wanted a necklace like the below but always hoped someone would buy me one. Well, I decided to just get it for myself; and I love it!

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I confess… I have a ton of things to do today and I WILL get them done. I am feeling so motivated too; it’s a rare excellent feeling. I’ve noticed as I get older that very few things make me as excited as I remember being as a kid. This came up the other morning when Elliot and I heard on the radio that they apparently have this new niche market for adult summer camps. As far as I can tell, they pretty much do the same activities, just with adults. Sounds awesome if you ask me! Here’s one to check out, if you’re interested. If I was closer I would totally go!

 

That’s all for today; everyone enjoy your weekend!

Friday Confessional – let’s get to the weekend already

 

I confess… I’m normally a little irritated when wayward students come to my office looking for a room – well, annoyed when they give me attitude about it. I helped some transfers find the bottom floor this morning and was surprised by how willing to help them I was. I must be in a good mood!

I confess… some days I don’t know how I’m going to feel. The test is the first person I have to speak to once I get to work.

I confess… More and more I realize that I work best under pressure/a deadline. Take Fridays, for instance. I know I have a limited amount of time to catch up on the stuff I didn’t quite complete the rest of the week. This makes me extra productive on the last day of the week, which then ends me on a high note for the weekend.

I confess… I am not looking forward to moving onto the Gamma portion of T25 next week. It looks hard as hell and I have to admit, I didn’t make as much progress in Beta as I did in Alpha. Some of the harder Alpha moves I had down pat by the end of five weeks but in Beta, I still struggle with a couple ab things. For example, there’s a portion of dynamic core where you do this sitting bicycle move then transition to a v-hold (think pilates) and it is SO hard, especially since it’s nearly 20 minutes into the workout so you’re body is already screaming to let it rest. It won’t all be as easy as the warm-up moves!472992858_640

 

 

I confess… I’m going home at noon and my plan? Sweep and dust and clean up. I might even take a nap. A novel idea…

Friday Confessions – Pre-vaycay edition

Jimmy Buffet song of the week:

I confess… I have been straight up WORKING all morning. I got my summer syllabus and weekly plans all done and emailed. THAT was a huge freaking task. I also finished putting some books into the system and shored all that up. I know I will have to do work over my vacation but whatever; the kids gotta nap sometime.

I confess… I am taking my life one hour at a time right now. First, finish this post and answer a couple emails. Then, go pick up flea/tick meds for dogs. Then, if I am feeling it, Target for some last minute trip essentials. Afterwards, home for lunch, cleaning, packing, washing dogs, etc…

I confess… Ash and I had the most wonderfully serene evening. We worked out, then loaded Baby D in the car and: returned resistance bands and picked up weights instead, went into Beall’s and got Ash some new work shoes, then we headed to the mall where we ate Japanese and walked around. DQ’s ice cream machine was broken so we went out to Costco for frozen yogurt, Baby Girl went to bed, I cleaned up, then we watched the Spurs game. It was just really nice.

I confess… I miss my boys tremendously and I am starting to feel guilty about my parents having to deal with them for so long, even though they both volunteered and don’t really mind. I just know how exasperating they can be, day after day. I’m really looking forward to Sunday when we drive down there. I can’t wait to hug them and swim in the pool and start relaxing.

Let’s revisit my to-do list just one more time, shall we?

  • Put St. George Island sticker on car
  • Clean out car; Windex inside of windshield
  • Water kitchen windowsill cactus
  • Rinse off camp chairs – sand sticks to them
  • Order new ones of these
  • Get a pedicure
  • Book vet for boarding in June
  • Sort through Baby Girl clothes; some no longer fit
  • Change crib bedding
  • Vacuum hair on bathroom floor
  • Get a haircut
  • Have Elliot write thank you notes to people who did the Flat Stanley project
  • Experiment with some Pinterest recipes
  • Take a damn vacation! (STARTS…. NOW!)

Friday Confessions – False Echoes

Jimmy Buffet song of the week:

I confess… I am not very crunchy/hippie and all but I tried this essential oil combo of lemon and peppermint as a supplement to suppress appetite and well, it works. I have this innate desire to snack while I work at my desk but this really helps. I don’t plan to totally change my diet while I’m doing T25 so anything that helps is good.

I confess… I’m pumped about going to Epcot. I honestly sat through an hour long walk-through video on youtube – just for fun. The last time I was in that park, Ash took me for my 25th birthday. We spent one night in the Wilderness Lodge, in a villa, and met my sister at Magic Kingdom for a bit before heading into Epcot. I think she was working at the former MGM at the time and that’s how we got into multiple parks. At the end of the evening, it was getting rainy and I think Ash and I were a little exasperated but we had this wonderful moment when the lights on the sidewalk started up and we were huddled under an umbrella – he and I came back together then and ended the night on a high note.ee949b0a5589168d63f025998b684a3b

 

I confess… it’s going to be weird without the boys next week. So quiet! So… boring? They might drive me nuts but they keep me busy.

I confess… I have seven empty water bottles in my office, ready to be recycled. I really need to get organized and bring my own water container each day.

I confess… this morning is flying by! I have some more work to do and though some is done, I am actually running out of time! Then I have to go home and do two T25 workouts, then we go to lunch and probably to see Xmen. Sadly, my day doesn’t end there. I have to clean for my parents’ arrival tomorrow and do laundry and pack up my boys. Always something!

Let’s revisit my to-do list, shall we?

  • Put St. George Island sticker on car
  • Clean out car; Windex inside of windshield
  • Water kitchen windowsill cactus
  • Rinse off camp chairs – sand sticks to them
  • Order new ones of these
  • Get a pedicure
  • Book vet for boarding in June
  • Sort through Baby Girl clothes; some no longer fit
  • Change crib bedding
  • Vacuum hair on bathroom floor
  • Get a haircut
  • Have Elliot write thank you notes to people who did the Flat Stanley project
  • Experiment with some Pinterest recipes
  • Take a damn vacation!

 

I think I got 3-4 crossed off; I’m getting there! Have a good weekend, everyone.