A New Perspective


I always used to think that I was one to stand up for the things I believed in or thought were wrong. But truth be told, I really like to avoid confrontation. Sure, I’ll get really angry and frustrated by certain situations and I *may* run off at the mouth but I don’t really like to get into it with people.

On Wednesday morning, I went into Ell’s daycare and after he was set up with his breakfast, I went in to see the director – who is leaving this week to go back to school – to make sure we were still on track for getting Isaac into the one year old room come mid-April. I put him on the wait list seven months ago and he has priority since Ell is already there. Previously, she let me know it might not be April 15th, maybe a couple weeks after. I was OK with it because his current care-taker said she’d hold him until the end of the month if need be. So I walk in there and she blatantly tells me that she told me August. Um… does this 22 year old girl think I’m THAT stupid? Come now, had she *actually* told me August, I would have been searching for a new place. I was… furious. I told her that she needed to get it worked out because, well, all the stuff I just said. She admitted she didn’t yet have a working April spreadsheet (Um, April is NOT that far away sweetie. Get yer ass on it.) In not so many words, I told her she best get her shit together and I’d be checking in on her soon.

Hoo boy was I angry. And slightly freaking out. So imagine my dismay when I got to work and – God, now I can’t even remember how it got started – I was chatting with a co-worker and the issue of salary came up. So, coupled with my existing money issues and the daycare crisis, I was beyond furious when I found out that two people in the department who are the same job description as myself make more. AND, one of them is getting a raise. And she is sucking at her job! SO, I gathered myself and went to my office to think. I was in that right mood and it was the perfect storm of events. I made up my mind to talk to my office manager about my problems. I shut the door and told her everything about making not enough money and feeling like my co-workers have been dropping the ball lately (I have been picking up A LOT of their slack the past few weeks). I was pleasantly surprised to see that she was on my side and said she’d support me in asking Arts and Sciences for a raise.

Part two of this deal is that I made an appointment to speak with our department chair, who really makes that call in terms of petitioning A&S. That conversation took place yesterday and again, I was surprised. I don’t think he realized a.) the things that TAs were saying about the other employees (i.e. not going to them for answers b/c they just don’t have them, etc.) or b.) my low pay. SO, he said he’d help me get the raise and in the meantime, I have been given clearance to teach two sections per semester. I already teach one on top of my 40 hour a week job; that’s the only reason I can even make bills as it is!

So this just goes to show you have to get tough sometimes. Squeaky wheel gets the oil and all that. My Wednesday was so productive because I was fired up. I even called Dir.ecTV and got our bill lowered. AND I got us out of having to pay a 65 dollar charge to get a regular receiver instead of this POS DVR one.

Let’s just say that the second half of this week has been uplifting and successful. As I stare down 32 (9 days, people. NINE.) I am feeling really good about things. The immediate problem of summer money isn’t yet solved but I am one step closer. And when things even out with the two sections, I will make enough money to not be so tight AND possibly save some. Amazing! I just feel so proud of myself, not to pat my own back. Finally, I have taken steps to improve our situation and they’ve gone in my favor.

Now, I just have to hang in there until the new money starts coming in and cross my fingers that A&S approves the raise. Things are looking up!

Happy Friday, my dear readers. I hope it’s a good one.

That time again



Oh man, there’s a whole lot going on with me right now but I’ll try to save the good stuff for a real post. In the meantime, here’s my weekly confessions:

  • I confess… I *may* have gotten Sonic Burger tater tots yesterday. Ok ok, I *did* but I ate half and threw the rest away. Not because of guilt but because they weren’t even very good. At least that cherry limeade was perfection in a styrofoam cup.
  • I confess… I got a wee bit angry at my daycare director on Wednesday. Without going into too much detail, she’s leaving and dropping the ball on some things.
  • I confess…I ate dessert twice this week. This is unlike me. Not that I have anything against dessert. No, I love me some sweets. But I was eating because I was stressed and depressed.
  • I confess… I am really broke but I’m going to stop by the mall later. Yankee candle has dollar tarts right now!
  • I confess… I’m jonesin’ for a new book on my kindle app; I usually have something going there that I – ahem – wouldn’t buy in actual book form but haven’t read anything in a while.
  • I confess… I’m really hopeful now after the awesome day I had Thursday. BUT, I am worried that whenever too many good things happen, something bad is coming. I wish I could stop thinking this way.

Ok, that’s all I have. I’m going to work on a post about what I did yesterday to better my life. Stay tuned and happy Friday!



Thursday 13 – Thirteen Awesome Green Things

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1.) Fried green tomatoes – a Southern delicacy, if done correctly, these taste great!

2.) Pickles – Come on now, you know you like ’em. In tuna salad, on a burger, as a side to a southern lunch… pickles rock!3.) Green M&Ms – I swear to you, they taste better than the others. Plus, I heard they’re an aphrodisiac. ;)
4.) Green Lantern – He’s a pretty cool guy, despite the fact I think the movie is gonna suck.

5.) Army uniforms – ;)

6.) Mint – without it, we’d be a world full of people with bad breath

7.) Trees/grass/nature – Something purely awesome about them

9.) Wasabi – though not its pure form, the kind you eat with sushi is great

10.) The recycle symbol – We all know it

11.) Bactine – As a kid, my mom always used this on scrapes and now that I have children, I always think to buy this. I still remember the smell…

12.) Elf! – This is one of my all-time favorite movies

13.) Christmas trees – I know I said trees before but can I get this one too?

My Book Boyfriend – week 9


I feel like I really have sold Kresley Cole short. People ask what I’m reading now and I’m always like, “Oh, just that Kresley Cole stuff.” But really, I think she deserves so much more credit. Her Immortals After Dark series is actually quite well written and riveting. Her heroes are strong and her heroines stronger. Something she tends to do is be subversive with her characters. Some of her males are inexperienced and tentative, having to grow into the role of Alpha. And her heroines are strong and outspoken, can fend for themselves; never demure.

But back to the men; this week I chose Murdock, one of the Wroth brothers in this series. He got his own semi-book in Cole’s Holiday team-up with Gena Showalter, Deep Kiss of Winter.

Here’s his description, as seen by his mate, a Valkyrie who is also part Ice Fey, which leads to their issues:

He had longish dark brown hair, cut negligently, with a lock falling over his forehead. His face was fantasy-worthy, with a strong masculine jaw and chin.

He strode with an air of confidence. The male was gorgeous – and he knew it. How could he not, with the women gaping at him? Then she frowned. He seemed oblivious to the prancing coeds in low-cut tops angling for his attention. His body was big, muscular in a way that hinted immortal but what he was exactly eluded her.

What he is is a vampire and though I just featured Derek Theler yesterday, I think he’s perfect.

Here’s a swoon-worthy scene:

(Daniela speaking) “What do you want from me?”

“I don’t know. A chance? To see where this leads.”

She felt a spark of excitement at the idea, but mentally snuffed it. Murdock equals misery. When would she finally accept that?

“Stay here, Daniela. With me.”

She narrowed her eyes. “With you? Like living together?” Had his nod been the tiniest bit hesitant? “What’s changed?”

“You said that I was afraid, and I think you were not…wrong.”

She didn’t reply, just raised her brows.

“I didn’t see it before, didn’t understand my reluctance. But when I was ambushed and I believed I was going to die” – he stopped, meeting her gaze – “all I could think of was you.”

Sigh. I love me some honest men. Though Murdock was a ladies’ man before frozen into his immortality unwillingly, he pursues and does everything in his power to win Daniela and make it work between them. I hearted him so much.

The crunch

As in, financially. I know you’re all shaking your heads and saying, “Noooo, I don’t wanna hear about your money woes AGAIN!” but this is my on-going dilemma and it needs to be written. It makes me feel better.

That said, I have applied to numerous part-time positions in the writing and editing fields, along with doing some networking with people I used to work with/for and who now manage stores in town. God, how I so do NOT want to work a part-time job. Ash has said on a number of occasions that if it got bad, he’d either pimp himself out as a computer dude or get some work at Best Buy. And I’ve always fought him on that because I am selfish and want him home. But since I’m the one who makes less money, I’ve decided that I need to step up. The online teaching was such a good way to solve our problems but the solicits are no longer coming. I have no idea why.

I am willing to put in a couple months of hard labor and long days if it means we can get ahead until the second half of summer or until the kids’ daycare rates change or – best case scenario – I can find a higher paying job.

During Spring Break week, I noticed a gigantic stack of desks out in the hallways in our building and realized the maintenance people were hardcore cleaning the classrooms. One guy was bent down with a paper towel and a spray bottle meticulously cleaning every inch of every desk. In my head I thought, “My, how that must suck.” And then I realized that at least he has a job in this shitty economy. And then I realized how whiny I am to be bitching about wanting another job so I can maintain this lifestyle. Sure, we could sell my car, live off the money, carpool. I could quit my job and stay home full-time, losing my identity and not contributing financially at all. We could cut out TV, internet, keep feeding Zoey the cheap food and watch her fur fall out. I could stop sending Ell to Junior Gym on Fridays, which he loves. We could turn the air and heat off altogether and utilize sweaters and fans. But I don’t want to do that. I want to be comfortable.

This is short lived and most young couples have to “pay their dues”, go through some rough spots. It won’t always be like this, I know. I’m glad I spent a lot of today looking for other avenues. I have something in the works that I’ll reveal very soon and I’m pretty excited to get this idea off the ground. It won’t bring in any money right away but it’ll be something long term on the side.

As my sister once said, ‘It’s always OK in the end; if it’s not OK, then it’s not the end.”

Random Tuesday – I went out this weekend like a real person!


Ok so I was going to write a Monday post about my weekend but why don’t I kill two  birds with one stone? When you’re done reading all my drivel, head over to Keely’s by clicking the above ham-tastic button.

  • As the title says, I went out on Saturday. It was Girls’ night and we had mediocre Mexican food which was made better by beer and tequila. Then we went to the Wine Loft which sounds pretentious but actually isn’t.
  • We then went to the 5th Avenue Tap Room, which was a bar actually for people my age, surprisingly. They had a good cover band playing and it turns out the lead singer is someone I worked with at CompUSA ages ago. Kind of cool.
  • I know everyone’s gonna bitch about the time change in their posts today; all I have to say is screw you, America. We’re no longer farmers; let’s abolish Daylight Savings time in ALL the states. Hoo-rah!
  • If you happen to see pics of my youngest boy and notice the bumps and bruises, please don’t call DCF. He’s learning to walk and very determined. I can’t keep up with him!
  • If your grocery store carries Snack Factory pretzel crisps, OMG get your hands on them and nom nom nom.
  • I am turning into a total hick. I listen to my country Pandora station a lot now (interspersed by the Sinatra and Soundgarden/Tool stations). I am so diggin’ “Chicken Fried”; I don’t care if it’s ‘kuntry’.
  • I eagerly await our tax return.
  • FYI: I applied to about ten online jobs. Not one has sent any kind of confirmation or follow-up email. This is utterly depressing.
  • We’re honestly considering getting rid of DirecTV. I mean, getting rid of all service, period. I don’t watch that much television but I do still want the option, you know?
  • I would be sad if I had to find a place to watch Bones online.
  • But otherwise, I’d be OK with just Netflix and dvds.
  • Could you go without the television?

This week’s Man Candy I just happen to come across while looking at pics of my intended specimen, Josh Kloss. This is Derek Theler and I was more drawn to his all-American boy look. He’s been on some TV like The Hills and Cougar Town but I think I am digging the fact that he’s freaking 6’5” and ripped. Two pics today to showcase his goods. Happy Tuesday!

MMOM – Back to the grind edition

Via java

1.  Do you have a fireplace in your home?

I don’t but the house I lived in during high school does and I love going back to visit my parents so we can enjoy their fires.

2.  Can you drive a stick shift?

No way! I tried once and quickly realized I wouldjust avoid learning by never owning that kind of car. Though I still think I should.

3.  How many computers are in your home?

Man, we used to have so many, because we were gaming dorks. Now we have mine, Ash’s, his backup, two servers and a laptop.

4.  Are your taxes done yet?  Do you do them yourself?

Yes and Ash did them through Tax Act. It makes me terribly nervous every year.

5.  What is your favorite meal of the day?

I’m actually going with breakfast. If I don’t eat, I’m really cranky. Plus, I love pastries and/or biscuit sandwiches and always have to have coffee.

Laying it on the line – Friday Confessional


GlamazonOk, here goes:

I confess… I totally played hooky from work yesterday. They already thought I was going to be out so I went home after a few hours. I: washed every dirty dish we had, cleaned the bathrooms, swept all the floors, vacuumed all the rugs, dusted, washed towels and sheets, blew the polleny crud off the back deck and scrubbed dog nose crust from the glass doors.

I confess…I wish I hadn’t screwed up my swap application; I was looking forward to collecting my favorite things. Though I confess also that I didn’t read very carefully, which is a sin as far as I’m concerned. I preach to my students about reading directions…

I confess...I am only working a half day today because Ash and I are going to go have Japanese (purely coincidental; my thoughts are with the earthquake/tsunami peeps) and then to see a movie. I only wish it were warmer. 35? WTF is this, March??

I confess… it’s really tempting to take some of this money I made on ebay and buy myself some clothes, though I know it has to go towards our trip.

I confess… I am slightly disappointed that we aren’t going to make it to Hawaii. But San Fransisco will be cool; we have a friend who works for Google and he’s already said he’ll treat us to lunch or dinner at the Googleplex.

I confess… I am a little more excited about seeing the Google compound than maybe I should be.

I confess…I’m paying a guy to trim my front hedges and clear our this planter area when I am quite capable of doing this work myself.

I confess…I am totally not ready to go back to teaching next week. I haven’t got the motivation to face those kids.

Ok, kiddos, that be it. Head on over and confess your deepest darkest transgressions. Or you know, whatever’s on your mind. Happy Friday!


Thursday 13 – Just Random Things

  1. The wind is howling today but the clouds have cleared and the sky is blue.
  2. My jeans feel tight and it makes me angry I had to take 4 weeks off for an injury.
  3. The boys and I had breakfast at home this morning and we were leisurely about leaving.
  4. My rescheduled surgeon appointment is at 12:45 today.
  5. I am hoping he can get me back in very soon. Of course, I’ll need to probably cancel one class because of this.
  6. My hand hurts a lot right now and it makes me angry because if things had gone as planned, I could be on the road to recovery by now.
  7. I am seriously contemplating leaving work. They all think I am out anyway…
  8. Then I’m gonna go home and clean. OMG, just the thought excites me.
  9. I haven’t felt this giddy in a long time!
  10. I watched the new Real World pilot last night. I just don’t know why…
  11. Bones is on tonight!
  12. Isaac, by the way, is stacking blocks.
  13. I just turned off Pandora and I am leaving!

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