This is going to be a very disjointed post but I want to write how this day has been for me. My brain is all over the place because of my surgery. I KNOW it sounds lame to worry about a mere carpal tunnel procedure that lasts all of TEN MINUTES but I have never had any sort of surgeries. I pushed two kids out in relatively short amounts of time and only needed but one stitch. I have never needed anesthesia. I have never broken a bone. (Ok, my pinky toe but that doesn’t even count). I just don’t know what to expect.
I had dreams I couldn’t find the hospital. Which is laughable because I have been there before and it’s only about three blocks from my house. I dreamt I couldn’t find the room to go to and I was running late. I slept like crap.
A nurse called and ran me through all kinds of stuff, the most important thing being to wash with this antibacterial soap stuff. No biggie. I called a specific number to find out my time. I have to be at the hospital by 5 AM and my surgery is slated for 7:30. The plan is that I will drive myself and Ash will take care of getting the kids to school. I see no other way to run this, honestly. When they’re dropped off, he’ll come back and bring me home; we’ll get my car later.
I tried to go about my day normally: I got Batgirl #19 and I am writing the review now. I ordered books for Summer and Fall classes because on Monday, the schedules go live and to be in compliance with the state, books needed to be… on the books. I ate a slice of pizza because I am being a good little lapsed Catholic and abstaining from meat. I’m cleaning my office so when I get back Monday, I don’t feel like my life is spinning out of control. Classes resume and I will attempt to continue normal functions, even with my hand all bandaged.
I will be so glad when this is all over. Mostly, I look forward to being able to run without my hand asleep. And writing. I can’t wait to write in my journal without severe pain. I actually really love the act of handwriting. There’s something very sensual about dragging the tip of a pen across paper.
OK SO… I just got a call from the surgeon’s office…the guy who was going to perform it had a family emergency so I have to reschedule with one of the other surgeons and then reschedule the surgery. This is such bullshit. I was ready; this week works because I have no classes. SIGH.
You know how they say things happen for a reason? Yeah, I just don’t see it yet. Dear world, please present said reason soon. Kthxbye.