Chin up, young person

I have all sorts of random thoughts today and no, there won’t be some April Fool’s post because I’m not down with that. I know, I’m a party-pooper.

I just ate an Amy’s breakfast burrito and although it’s all organic and loaded up with wheat, soy and tofu, (same stuff, eh?) I am just not sure anyone ought to eat onions in the morning. What an awful way to start my day. But at least the belly is satiated. For now. Luckily, one of the nice book publishers is coming to hock their wares and they always bring lunch. Today it’s Panera; yum.

By the way, you know how I’ve mentioned being slightly poor as all get-out lately? Well, yesterday was a very lucky day for me. My boss gave me a belated b-day card with a 25 dollar gift card to Borders. Woot! What’s even more awesome is that totaled me up to 75 dollars in book gift cards (2 for B&N from other people before). Then, later in the day, I found a ten dollar bill! Imagine my surprise! But no one was around – since my first inclination was, of course, to give it back – so I claimed it. Sometimes wonderful little boons present themselves, don’t they?

But I’m a skeptical person and I can’t help but think, in the back of my mind, that since yesterday was so good, today has got to be the polar opposite. I suppose that’s not a very positive way of looking at life but it would seem to be the norm. Perhaps if I didn’t view it this way, it would change?

But anyway, there’s nothing all too exciting happening in my life right now. I am still looking for teaching jobs and plugging away at losing some baby weight (Ok, I am back to my pre-pregnancy weight but there’s still fat. Why?). I have about 12 research papers still to grade, some unfinished work related tasks on deck, and we’re going out of town for the day on Saturday and as much as I want to attend the event, I don’t look forward to the 10 hour round trip drive with the baby. But I can’t let the advent of child keep me locked up in my house.

I feel overwhelmed today and no amount of coffee or sweets or success can cheer me up or make me feel better. Perhaps you have a suggestion?